I started young, 12 or 13, when I first saw my first gay porn magazine and the images of men sucking and fucking each other turned me on so intensely I could hardly breath. After that I could not stop thinking about COCK. Day and night I felt an intense hunger and desire to serve COCK. I had wet dreams almost every night about gay sex. I would get hard when I went to the boys room and saw other boy's COCKS as they pissed in the urinals or when we were in the locker room.
I fought my urges for many many many years, gooning to gay porn in the closet so to speak and periodically cruising for hook-ups with horny male strangers at the gym, in the park, the sex shop, gay sex clubs and bath houses, the movie theater, the mens room...sucking and fucking strange men with giant COCKS and loving every minute of it.
For a long time it was just gay sex. Then I starting getting into Sissies as objects of desire...and then slowly I awakened to the desire to be a Sissy and I finally felt like I had found my true place in the world...my true home in my own heart and soul.
Along the way I studied and practiced every spiritual system, and got a doctorate in psychology. And at the same time I was doing extensive lived inquiry research into the transformative potential of porn. I got really curious about sissy hypno porn and started to deeply study it. Soon I discovered how powerful the hypnos were as I became more and more completely reprogrammed.
In parallel with all this I have been psychic and empathic all my life and early on in my closeted life of hidden porn I started to experience psychic encounters with several sexual entities including a sacred sissy slave whore Goddess, a council of primal gay sex masters, lust demons and even visits from LORD SATAN himself.
These psycho-sexual entities have taught me ancient secret psycho-sexual spiritual practices that are aligned with the ancient tradition of Tantric Yoga and the sacred whore tradition of the ancient temples of Egypt and Greece. At the same time they have given me the most profoundly erotic experiences of my life and am filled with gratitude for them. They are my MASTERS and they have guided me to start the Church of Transformative Sexuality and to serve the sissy community during this sacred time of the Great ALPHA-beta Re-Awakening. It is now my mission to prepare us beta bois to serve the great new class of ALPHA MALE MASTERS who are once again taking over the world.
