Becoming a VR Porn Girl in Real Life

 

I never had a fuck buddy before college. In my freshman year my dorm mate was a total stoner. One night I came home late and found him wasted and gooning to VR porn. Before I knew what was happening I was totally stoned and sitting next to him wearing his other VR headset and gooning to the VR porn where we were fucking a hot sissy from both ends. Our VR COCKS were huge and we were both beautiful hot sissy's and I was filled with more lust than I knew was possible. Hours later I was dressed like a sissy maid sucking his giant COCK in real life while he continued to play in the VR sex world. 

In that moment I knew the truth...

I am becoming porn,
I watch and stroke to the images
gooning to big hard throbbing COCKS
slamming down ravenous gulping throats
and penetrating deep into gasping assholes
and big beautiful bouncing breasts
entrance my soul
and she is a he and a she
he is a girl and so is she
and I am the girl
I am porn
I roam the streets late at night
hunting for COCK to suck
and COCK to ride
and Holy SEED to drink
and to seep into the depths of my belly and bowels.

69 is Sacred and Holy for Me

 

The first time I saw a picture of two men sucking each other off was also the first time I experienced the hunger for COCK. 

COCK hunger is a particular state of being where every fiber of your being aches for COCK. 

I was thirteen years old and I felt embarrassed and ashamed. In the COCK hunger state my embarrassment and shame strangely heightened and deepened my erotically electrified state of being. 

I masturbated to that image and others that night and every night for weeks.

It was so much more than a a physical high.

It was erotically transcendent.

The hunger for COCK was not just a physical hunger;

it was a hunger of the heart and soul as well.

And even the spirit,

for COCK became my GOD.

I would do anything for COCK. 

Over the years my COCK hunger has grown by leaps and bounds. COCK is truly my GOD. Every time I see a COCK I want to get down on my knees and take Holy Communion and drink its SACRED SEED.

The highest states of COCK hunger I experience are when two COCKS become one. The famous 69 position. Two hot studs sucking each other off. 

I experience a profound state of erotic bliss when we CUM at the same time.

We become one...we shoot our loads into each other all at once.

Imagine our energetic beingness shooting into each other

and having it shot back into us.

As we squirt into each other

we are simultaneously drinking of the other

and drinking of our selves. 

My CUM is your CUM and your CUM is my CUM, and we CUM into each other.

Our SEEDS OF CREATION swim within and between us,

We are connected to the SOURCE OF CREATION.

We are drinking ITS essence.

When we experience this in a deep way

it beCUMes

Sacred

Holy

And

Cosmically ORGASMIC!

Riding SATAN's COCK

 

There is profound erotic joy and ecstasy in riding SATAN's COCK. 

Those of us who are lucky enough to be visited by SATAN and His LUST DEMONS know the pure unbounded orgasmic mind-blowing pleasure of being fucked by SATAN'S giant hard throbbing COCK.

Though it is only in subtle energy form the experience is incredibly physical, emotional, soulful and spiritual nothing in this world can compare.`

Remembering my First COCK Crush

I remember my very first COCK crush. It happened when I was in junior high and my bully pulled out his giant COCK in class when the teacher was out of the room. He jerked off at the teachers desk and acted like he was gonna shoot his CUM all over it but then we heard the teacher approach so he pulled it back into his pants and sat down. But it was too late for me. 

The sight of his hard throbbing giant COCK penetrated my entire being and I became obsessed with it. I dreamed about it and jerked off to the image of it that was burned into my mind. Before this I would always try to avoid running into him because I knew he would abuse me. After this experience I went out of my way to be near him. Now every mean word, every punch to my stomach, turned me on. 

I started to follow him into the boys room and he caught me staring at his COCK while he pissed. He called me a sissy faggot and beat me up pretty good. While he beat me his COCK was still hanging out of his fly and with every punch it grew bigger and harder. Finally he stopped hitting me and stood there, above me as I knelt on the sticky floor before him, panting and staring at me. Before I knew it he was violently face fucking me, slamming that giant COCK of his down my gagging throat. After several wild minutes he held the back of my head and slammed his COCK deep all the way down my throat and shot a giant hot load of CUM straight down my gasping gagging gullet. The load was so huge I struggled to swallow it all while his giant COCK was still deeply embedded in me. For a moment I couldn't breath and then he pulled out and I gasped for air and swallowed down as much as I could. He laughed and said he owned me know and that I was now his sissy faggot CUM dumpster slave. I smiled and said...yes MASTER. 

From that day forth I was indeed his CUM dumpster, taking several loads of his every day down my throat and up my ass, all through junior high and high school.

 

Jerk Buddy Heaven

My college roommate introduced me to drugs, porn and jerk buddy sex. I was an innocent freshman from the midwest at a liberal California college. My new roommate was a total stoner and would spend all day and night stoned, listening to music and playing video games. Finally I broke down a took a hit off his giant bong and that was it for me. It was amazing. A whole new reality opened up for me. 

After a few hours and many bong hits we started playing porn video games which led to hypno porn videos which were totally trippy when combined with the weed. We both got so hot and he pulled out his giant COCK and started to jerk off. Before long we were bating each other and it was the most erotic experience of my life...or so I thought...each step deeper into jerk buddy sex was more and more erotically wondrous. 

That first feel of my hand on another guys hard throbbing COCK, the first feel of that COCK exploding in my hand, the first time we came at the same time, the first time my COCK touched another COCK, the first time my lips touched another COCK, my first COCK gag as it slide down my throat, the first load of another man's CUM shooting down my throat, and of course the first time a COCK bred my ass pussy...each step of the way was more and more erotically wondrous. And I was hooked forever in an unending pleasure spiral falling down the Rabbit Hole toward Jerk Buddy Heaven...and I would not change a thing...

 

Straight Porn Role Transference

Straight porn role transference is a powerful transformative agent in the awakening of gay and sissy consciousness. Beta males gooning to straight porn will often associate more with the women than the men in the images because the males are often only partially shown, just their COCKS, hands, etc. and the females are the ones that tell us what the emotional story is because the focus is on both their bodies and their faces...the females emotional reactions are primary so we beta males naturally project onto them.

 

The First Taste of COCK is Never the Last

Once I tasted COCK I was hooked for life. There really is nothing like it. I was 13 and forced to suck the COCK of my bully. I gagged and choked on it and threw up afterward but that night I jerked off to the memory all night long. From that moment on all I could think about was COCK. Before this moment I avoided my bully whenever I could, but the next day I went out of my way to find him. As always he shoved my books out of my hands and I got down on my knees instantly to pick them up but this time I stayed down there extra long gazing at his crotch. I looked up into his eyes and he knew I was now his slave. From that day on, every day, I serviced his COCK with my mouth and ass while he physically and verbally abused me...and I loved every second of it.

 

We were Made for This

Release thy primal self and become what you were born to be. 

Shatter all thy conditioning and reprogram thyself 

to be that which you were born to be. 

Who we are in the world is rarely who we really are 

deep down inside the core of our being. 

Yet we cannot know true joy, wonder and beauty 

without being and living from the truth of who we are 

and what we were born to be and do. 

WE WERE MADE FOR THIS...

 

Being Schooled in COCK

My older brother caught me dressing in our recently deceased dead mother's clothes and makeup. Both of mother and father died in a car accident the week before. My brother had just turned 18 and be was now my guardian. He freaked out when he saw me and started yelling at me and calling me a sissy faggot. He slapped me around and then put me across his lap and lifted up my skirt and pulled down my panties and started to spank me, calling me a bad girl. Saying that I was no longer his brother and was now his sister. And that from now on since I liked wearing mom's clothes that I would be taking mom's place doing all the cooking and the cleaning and doing his laundry and did everything I was told to do. I was crying and saying "yes sir" to everything he said to me. My own COCK was getting hard and pressing into his lap. As he spanked me more and more we both got hard my my throbbing COCK was pressing into his throbbing bulge inside his pants. He stopped spanking me and commanded me to get on all fours. I did as he commanded without hesitation. He then proceeded to pop my anal virginity and I screamed from the most pain I have ever experienced that was strangely intertwined with the greatest pleasure I have ever known. As my screams turned into grunts and groans as he began fucking me hard and deep, he whispered that I would also be his sissy sex slave whore and that he was going to make my wishes come true and use my college money for hormone treatments and surgery to turn me into a hot sissy babe that can go out and whore on the streets for him and make him a lot of money. For the next few months my brother schooled me in how to serve his COCK and awakened in me a hunger to serve all COCKS. 

He made me go back to school as a girl. And I was humiliated constantly and was constantly turned on by that humiliation. The bullies all beat me up and some of them fucked me afterward in secret. Most of my friends shunned me but my best friend Jake stuck by me. After a few weeks we were talking on our way home from school and he asked me if being a girl was truly what I wanted. I said yes. He asked if they meant I wanted to have sex with boys and not girls. And I whispered yes. And then he stopped and looked deeply into my eyes and asked if I was attracted to him sexually. He asked in a very strange way and I could not tell if he was just curious or if he really wanted me to want him and that he wanted me too. I blushed and stammering and looked away and hesitantly whispered to him that yes, I was attracted to him sexually and that I loved him and wanted to be his slave and that all I wanted to do right then was to suck his COCK and have him fuck me and then pleasure him all day and night. After a long awkward silence I turned to face him and he passionately kissed me on the lips and we were instantly deeply French kissing each other and mashing our bulging crotches into each other. We ended up naked and ravaging each other behind some bushes at the local park. Needless to say I was deeply and completely overjoyed to be having all my dreams CUM true.

 

The Joy of Being Face-Fucked

As a woman or beta male I love to be face-fucked, pinned against a wall, knowing deep down that I was born to serve, to serve as an object to be used and abused.

 

The Birth of a CUM Whore

I remember that moment I became a CUM whore. It was actually the first time I tasted another man's CUM. I had just gotten my first blow job from another guy in a bathroom stall in a gay movie theater. It was so mind blowingly amazing that I dropped to my knees and sucked off his COCK. It was covered in dry sticky CUM and piss and tasted bitter and gross and I almost gagged. I pulled away and swallowed pieces of that dry sticky CUM and felt like throwing up. Strangely, at the same time I was so turned on by it that my whole body was trembling with erotic energy. 

Something inside clicked and I went wild on his COCK and in a few minutes he was shooting a giant hot load of fresh CUM down my gagging gullet. As he came down my throat I came as well, shooting my load on the bathroom floor. I swallowed and gulped it down the best I could but half the CUM was sticking to the insides of my mouth and throat. I thanked him, pulled up my pants and walked out of the bathroom and movie house vibrating with wild erotic energy while feeling sick, light headed and nauseous at the same time. I was having trouble swallowing and breathing from the sperm covering the insides of my entire mouth and throat. 

Somehow I ended up behind the theater in the back alley and dropped to my knees and threw up. After several minutes of full body barfing and choking and coughing and gagging it stopped and I caught my breath. I felt so weak and exhausted and dizzy and the whole world around me and inside me was spinning. Suddenly I wanted more CUM, I wanted to do it all again. Crazy I know, but I loved it. It all turned me on so much that I gathered my strength and went back inside the theater and ended up sucking as many COCKS as I could until I blacked out completely.

The next morning I woke up on an old torn mattress in the back alley totally naked, covered in piss and CUM, with CUM oozing out of my sore asshole and covering the insides of my mouth and throat, along with a fully belly of CUM and piss inside me. I felt totally broken, my body was aching and all bruised up. I was profoundly weak and totally spacy and feeling intense nausea...and all I wanted was more and more...in that moment the CUM WHORE was born. 

And even though I was sick for weeks after that experience, as soon as I got better I went back for more and have not stopped seeking CUM ever since.

 

My First MASTER

My first MASTER was a gay MASTER. He was my high school bully. It started on my first day of high school. He grabbed me by the shirt and commanded me to give him some lunch money. When I said no he punched me in the stomach. I doubled over on the ground and he commanded me again. On my knees in front of the whole school I gave him my money. He laughed and then spit on me and walked away. The shame and humiliation I felt was so intense my whole body trembled and my stomach got all twisted up in knots. As I slowly got up and walked into the school with my head hung low in shame and everyone watching, my COCK got rock hard. I tried to hide it, feeling even more ashamed. He continued fucking with me every day for weeks and every time I got super ashamed and super turned on. One time he saw my erection and laughed and called me out in front of everyone and started to call me faggot and sissy. He sent tons of gay porn to be computer and phone and I began masturbating to the porn and imagined I was serving my bully. Soon I was sucking his COCK every day under the bleachers and soon after that he was fucking me in the ass as well. And soon after that I was his devoted gay slave boi doing everything he told me to do. We lost touch after high school but then got together again at our 10 year reunion and have since renewed our wondrous relationship.

 

Making it in Hollywood

When I graduated film school a friend of mine invited me to the party of a big Hollywood producer. His house was huge and there were over a hundred people there. Most we naked and having sex everywhere.The producer was huge and fat and was sitting on a throne in the main room with collared and leashed sissies naked sissies at his feet sucking on his giant hard throbbing COCK. My friend introduced us and the producer said he had seen my student films and was a fan and wanted to produce my first feature. I was speechless. One of his servant sex slave pets brought over some drinks and we toasted to our working together. As I drank the drink my head got light headed and the room began to spin. The next thing I knew it was 6 months later and I was a fully feminized sissy whore on my knees at the producers feet sucking his giant hard throbbing COCK and eating his yummy CUM around the clock. I can hardly remember my past life and when I do the memory is fleeting because the thought of COCK returns to fill up all my heart and mind constantly. I am lost and I am found but filled with endless erotic joy at having found and followed my true LUST and desires.

 

MAGA Conversion in Academia

I am a history professor at a small liberal arts college and almost everyone is liberal from faculty to students to service people. One day I got a right-wing ultra conservative racist student in my class. He was constantly challenging everything I said and we had heated debates in front of the class. One time we continued our debate in the hall as I walked to my office. We got into my office and i closed the door because he was getting very loud. I tried to calm him down and figure out what was really bothering him. 

Finally he stood up and said he was sick and tired of me and everyone else at the school espousing all this equal rights bullshit. Then he said he was from a pure white blood line and inferior Jew professors like me should get on their knees and suck his COCK. Then he pulled out his COCK and it was huge and I could not help myself...the next thing I knew I was on my knees sucking his glorious COCK while he called me names like "jew faggot", "sissy faggot jew boi", and more. 

He grabbed my hair and face fucked me like a wild animal whispering about how he was going to feed me the truth and wake me up from my delusions and help me realize my proper place in the natural order. Then he shot his load down my throat and commanded me to drink his truth and I gagged and swallowed the best I could as he shot load after load and then began to piss down the back of my throat. I was so turned on and gulped as much of it all down as I could. At the same time I was totally confused, all my life I held myself and others to a high moral code, but now all I wanted to do was become the sex slave pet whore to this 20 year old alt-right college student who deeply and completely hated me and treated me like an inferior being and an object to be used and abused. Well a week later I was his and have been ever since. I love serving my CONSERVATIVE MASTER but it is a very strange and surreal experience. 

He and his friends are part of the biggest fraternity on campus and all them are alt-right. They all take turns using and abusing me and when I am not in use I am either teaching or in my cage in the basement drugged out and plugged into nonstop VR porm. They all have alt-right tattoos and tell me what they are going to do to me and all Jews someday while they use, abuse, rape, beat and torture me. They tell me how they are going to ultimately torture me to death after I bring them hundreds more Jew professors and students so they can turn them into their slaves as well. They branded me with alt-right tattoos and collared and leashed me and began feminization drug treatments on me, and assigned me one of their alt-right brothers to be my TA and help me with my mission. 

I was so sexually turned on by it all and actually intellectually turned on by the revelation of the connection between alt-right ideology and sexuality. I began to teach about this connection in my classes and my classes became much more popular. Every day I have at least one Jewish student come to my office and tell me how my lectures were turning them on and they were so confused and ashamed. I console them and tell them it is perfectly natural and that they should not repress those feelings but fully express them in some way. That is when I hand them over to the alt-right TA to help them find a way to express their alt-right sexual desires. He shows them an alt-right hypno porn video that they created and by the end of it every student CUMS in their pants and are ashamed and humiliated and turned on by it all. Every student so far has become instantly addicted to the video and watch it nonstop once we send them the link to the video. Within a few weeks they all end up in a cage in the basement of the at-right frat house with me. 

The other Jewish professors on campus are also curious about my work and all come to me as well. I always end up showing them the video and everyone of them has CUM in their pants and feel the powerful erotic shame and humiliation as well. They too end up in the basement with me after a few weeks of them "researching" the video nonstop for weeks. 

I also wrote a book on my new discovery between alt-right ideology and human sexuality and have received hundreds of calls from Jewish professors from all over the world asking me all sorts of questions. Of course I send them the link to the video and like always within a few weeks they too are hooked completely. My frat MASTERS then find them all an alt-right MASTER nearby where they live. I know this is all madness...yet it feels so right and so real and so hot...and I cannot help by feel great erotic joy as I realize that day by day, the Great Awakening is happening...and soon I shall meet death itself as an insanely erotic adventure and there is something strangely wondrous about it all.

 

My First Blow Job by Another Guy

I will never forget the first time another guy sucked my COCK. I was a freshman in college working part-time as a waiter for a catering service. This one time I was working at a business conference and was taking a leak in the can. A business guy came in and peed in the urinal next to me. We both had pretty big COCKS and caught each other looking at each other's pissing rods. We both got hard ons and I started to blush. Since we were both pissing we just stood there, side by side, glancing at each others throbbing members while we pissed. We finished at the exact same time and we were both frozen in the moment on the edge between putting our COCKS away and out LUST for each others COCKS. 

After a long pregnant moment he said "Hey man, would you like a blow job? 

Time stood even more still for me in that moment. His question took my breath away and flooded me with great fear, shame, LUST and desire all at once. 

I stammered out a sheepish "N-n-no ThThThankyou" and shyly looked away yet I could not bring myself to put my COCK away and so I stood there, blushing, looking way while holding my hard throbbing COCK. 

He laughed and started to pitch me on the experience, saying that guys give other guys the best head cause we know exactly what to do. My COCK got even more rock hard and my balls began to churn and my ass and nipples began to erotically tingle. 

Before I knew it he was on his knees in his fancy business suit sucking my COCK deep deep down his ravenous mouth and throat. I gasped more deeply then I knew was possible...it was like every cell of my whole being gasped. The feeling of his mouth and throat around my COCK, sucking on it and milking it deeply was the most erotic experience of my life, exponentially more powerful than anything I experienced before. He was so good at it my whole body felt like it was being lifted up off the ground every time he swallowed me. He sucked me so deeply, with so much LUST, passion and wild abandon that my whole being trembled with deep undulating waves of erotic energy. He brought me to the edge of CUMMING many times and then skillfully pulled me back somehow again and again. Each time got more and more intense, with the erotic energy building up inside me. Then at the edge of the greatest erotic peak of my life he sucked me even more deeply and passionately as he slide a finger inside my ass and pressed against my prostate and my COCK exploded deep inside his milking throat. He held me tightly as my whole body convulsed in his hands and my COCK shot load after load down his ravenous COCK SOCKET. My back arched and I felt like my whole being was shooting out of my body and down his throat. I swear it felt like my feet actually left the ground as I shot my final load. 

That moment seemed like an eternity and then suddenly my whole body went limp and I would have collapsed onto the marble floor if he hadn't held me tightly and continued to gently milk my oozing COCK that was still inside his throat. It was by far the best orgasm of my life. I actually cried tears of erotic joy and thanked him and returned the favor. So began my journey to serve the Great COCK GOD.

 

My First Stroke Buddy Experience

I remember my first stroke buddy experience. I was a freshman in college and my dorm mate caught me masturbating to gay porn. I stammering and blushed and looked away. I was ashamed and afraid and my COCK got even harder than it was before. He whispered that everything was okay and that it was no big deal as he knelt down before me and took hold of my hard throbbing COCK. I remember the charge of erotic that surged through my COCK and my whole being as he stroked me up and down. It felt like each stroke was building a powerful energy deep inside my being and that my beingness itself was being drawn into that building force of energy. And then I felt my whole beingness draw down into my balls and shoot up my COCK and out of my body and into his hungry mouth that was sucking my COCK HEAD as.his stroking hand milked my essence of being out of me. I grabbed his head and slammed it down on my spurting COCK and shot more of my essence of beingness down he gulping gagging milking throat. In that instant we were one essence of beingness and then I was inside him and he was mine and I was his. 

By the end of the week we were stroke and suck and fuck buddies having gay sex all over the campus 24/7 with only breaking for classes. We would often meet each other after each class and find a place to go wild...behind bushes, in empty stairwells, in the bathrooms, in the library stacks, in the locker rooms and under the bleachers. And sometimes we would stroke each other under the study tables in the library right out in the open. 

One time another male student saw us and he stroked himself while he watched us. We ended up having a threesome in one of the study rooms, stroking, sucking and fucking each other for hours. He told us about the lounge in the basement of the gay student union that was open 24 hours a day and had a lot of gangbang action late at night. 

Lets just leave it at this was the beginning of an amazing four years of college gay sex...and of course I ended up going to grad school and got four degrees, became a professor and continued to have college sex for many years to CUM.

 

Initiation of a Gay Movie Star Slave Boi

I was house sitting for a movie star who was secretly gay. His entourage were all gorgeous gay hunks. He asked me to house sit for him while he was overseas shooting a movie. I said sure. Every morning I would swim naked in the pool and one day one of the guys from his entourage showed up. He asked if he could join me and I said sure. He stripped down and his giant hard throbbing COCK sprung to attention as he stepped into the pool at the shallow end. I was transfixed on his COCK for a long moment before he was fully in the water. He caught me gawking at his COCK and smiled. I blushed and sheepishly looked away and tried to hide my erection. 

We had hung out before and knew each other well and had many deep conversations in the past. So he swam up to me and started a conversation about the nature of eros and love as he slowly circled around me. Then he came up behind me and held me and spooned me. With one hand he held me around my waist and began to stroke my COCK with his other hand. At the same time he slide his massive COCK HEAD between my ass crack and rubbed my anus and gently began to press open my asshole. I gasped and shuddered and tried to swim away but he had me totally pinned. He nibbled on my ear and whispered: "It's okay. Don't be afraid. Everyone but you knows it's who you really are. Let me help you find your true self...let go...let me inside you..." 

With that he slide his entire COCK HEAD inside my boi pussy and I gasped and trembled with a strangely pleasurable pain. I kept whispering Oh God, Oh God, Oh God... as he slide his massive COCK further and further inside me under the water. Then he was fully inside me and held it there while he whispered: "Feel me deep inside you. It feels so good to have someone else inside you doesn't it." All I could do was whimper and nod my head yes. Before I knew it he was fucking slow and deep as we treaded water and floated in a circle. 

The other guys in the entourage came out of hiding, all of them naked with giant hard ons. They climbed in the pool and joined in. We had an orgy all day and all night. It was amazing. By the time the movie star came home I was all broken in for him and became a member of his entourage...which was actually his harem of slave boys. 

The night he came home he took me into his room and fucked me all night long. After that it was non-stop orgies at his homes in LA, New York and London, in his studio trailers and on location around the world.

 

My First COCK Crush

I remember my first COCK crush. Well my first live COCK crush. I have been crushing after COCK in porn since I started puberty. But my first living breathing reality-based COCK crush was when I was in a psychic channeling seminar with a famous Hollywood psychic and he took a shinning to me and asked me to have lunch with him. He took me to this super gym in West Hollywood where they had a restaurant in the middle of the gym. He must have been some kind of VIP because they seated us by ourselves in one of there private dinning rooms. He told me I had the gift to be a psychic and he offered to train me personally. 

He touched my thigh and I got instantly turned on and blushed. The hot muscle bound hunk of a waiter showed up to take our order. He was only dressed in a pair of tight spandex shorts that was not hiding his giant COCK at all. He stood right next to me and his throbbing crotch was right in front of my face. I could barely breath it was so amazingly beautiful. The shape, the lines, the pattern of the throbbing veins, totally entranced me. 

The psychic softly whispered in my ear that he sensed I was a COCK slave whore in many past lifetimes and that in order to begin my special training I had to reconnect with those past lives. His voice was lyrical and it entranced me even more. I started having flashbacks from past lives where I was a COCK slave whore and got so turned on. Then the waiter pulled down his shorts and his COCK as glorious and I went COCK CRAZY for it. 

That week I had COCK for breakfast, lunch and dinner with my psychic and the waiter who I soon realized was the psychic's special COCK slave whore. I was so crushing on that waiter's COCK that I became obsessed and addicted to it so deep and so fast, all dimensions of my being were spinning. GOD that was a great COCK!

 

My Week Living on only CUM and PISS

I once went for a whole week just living on CUM and piss. I was a member of a private gay movie and sex club on Hollywood Boulevard called the Hollywood Century Theater. It was open 24 hours a day and ran non-stop hardcore gay films. Every weekend was jammed with gay men fucking and sucking each other in the theater, in the bathrooms and in the "backroom" which was the space behind the screen. During the week there was still a lot action all the time, with breakfast, lunch, dinner and late night rushes with even more action. I lived right down the block from it and basically lived at the theater for over a year only going home to change clothes, eat and sleep...though I slept only a few hours at time and then went back for more.

So the first week I joined I went wild and spent the whole week inside the theater...it all started when I first moved in to my place and walked past the theater and discovered it. I was 19 years old, a sophomore in college, and was a repressed gay virgin, only masturbating and dreaming about gay sex but never having it. Suddenly there I was, living a half block from a gay sex mecca. For weeks I would walk past it, looking at the posters, reading the membership advertisements and watching the gay guys going in and out. The weekends were intense outside in front and back of the theater. Lots of scantily dressed hunks with bulging crotches caressing and kissing each other. Finally I couldn't resist and I joined the club and went inside.

There was fucking and sucking everywhere. In the lobby, in the theater, on screen and off, in both bathrooms and in the space behind the screen. I was so turned on that my whole being was vibrating with sexual energy. Someone passed me joint and I smoked it got totally wasted. I was still afraid but had to find a way to get off so I went to the mens to jerk off but I had to wait in line for a stall. The line was long and there were lots of gay hunks rubbing bulging crotches. Guys in line were rubbing up against each other and caressing each other. Guys were jerking off, sucking and fucking by the sinks and urinals. It was totally surreal and totally hot.

Finally I was next in line and a stall opened up. The guy coming out of it gave me a knowing smile as we passed each other. I swung open the partially closed door to the stall and saw a hot naked twink sitting on the toilet jerking off while he starred at my crotch like a hungry animal. His hungry stare was like a force field drawing me in and my body stepped in front him. He unzipped my pants and pulled them down and let them drop to my ankles. My throbbing COCK popped up and he grabbed my COCK and devoured it, sucking me hard, fast and deep like a starving wild animal while he held and squeezed my balls and pulled me toward him using my balls like a handle to my being. I grabbed onto the back of his head for balance as my hips rotated into him and my back arched as his warm sucking mouth and throat on my COCK and his warm hand pulling and milking my balls sent me into a state of pure erotic bliss. Then just before I was about to CUM he squeezed my balls tight and held it off while he sucked my COCK more intensely and slide a finger up my virgin ass and pressed on my prostate. And that was it, a jolt of erotic energy shoot from my prostate into my balls and up my COCK and I exploded deep down his throat. My back arched even more and my whole body lifted me up onto my toes as I shot my load. I literally felt like I was CUMING off the ground! And I swear it felt like my actually whole beingness was shooting out of my COCK and down this guys throat.

After several glorious minutes of orgasmic CUMING I was totally spent and drained but the guy just kept sucking my COCK and milking my balls and fingering my prostate. I started to have a dry orgasm and it lasted for several more minutes. Finally he slipped his finger out of my ass and released my balls. He kept softly sucking on my semi-hard COCK while he pulled my pants up for me and then he kissed my COCK and put it back inside my pants and closed them up. I looked down at him and cried, so filled with gratitude that I dropped to my knees, whispered a "Thank you, thank you, thank you..." and sucked on his CUM and piss covered COCK. I went wild on it and he soon shot a load into my mouth and throat. I gagged and choked on it and struggled to swallow. He talked me through it, telling me how to breath and swallow and not panic. We kissed and I left. I started to fill sick and dizzy. I went outside in the back alley and dropped to my knees and threw up. And strangely, after I barfed up all that CUM I wanted to go back for more. And I did...I went crazy for COCK and CUM.

First I went back to the men's room and waited for an empty stall and I camped out and served COCK after COCK for the rest of the day and all that night. In the morning I left the stall with the intention of going home but never made it out of the theater, too many giant hard throbbing COCKS calling my name. I totally lost control and spent the whole week inside the theater sucking and being fucked by scores of COCKS. I was consuming so much CUM that I lost any appetite for food...all I wanted was more CUM. Of course my favorite was to get fucked from both ends and was blessed with being spit roasted non-stop for several hours a few times during that first week.

After the first few hours of COCK SUCKING and CUM GULPING, I got thirsty and saw a stud drinking a beer and I asked if I could have some. He laughed and pulled out his massive COCK and said "yeah, here, have some of my recycled beer you faggot bitch" I got so turned on I instantly dropped to my knees and took hold of his glorious COCK and opened my mouth. He grabbed my head and slide his huge COCK down my throat and begin to piss down it. I gulped and gagged and tried to drink it all but it was too much too fast..I felt like I was drowning in it and was gasping for air as my throat and mouth filled with piss and it spilled out my lips and down my chin and soaked my body. He finally stopped pissing and pulled out and let my head go and I fell to the ground gasping for air and gulping down the remaining piss in my mouth and throat. And then strangely I came as I struggled to breath...I was so turned on by it it shocked me.

I went home, showered and changed and got totally stoned and started to make some food when I realized all I was hungry for was CUM and Piss. So that was it, for the next week, I lived at the club, sucking and being fucked, eating CUM and drinking PISS, 24 hours a day. Occasionally I would pass out from exhaustion and got hooked on it because every time I woke I had a surprise waiting for me...cause some guys liked to fuck the ass and mouth of unconscious guys. So I would wake up with a new COCK in my mouth or ass or both...and one time I woke up in a harness in the middle of a ritual in which I was the fuck and suck toy for everyone to play with. I admit that after about a week I got sick and spent a whole week sick in bed. And I have to admit that the second I felt better I went back for more, but only lived on CUM and PISS for a day or two at a time.

The Feminization Apartment

I got a new apartment in West Hollywood. The first night I heard two guys fucking all night in the apartment above me. It drove me crazy I masturbated all night. It happened every night, all night long. By the end of my first week I had not slept at all. 

Finally I went to talk to the landlord. He was a big fat old queen. He came to the door totally naked and his COCK was huge and hard. I couldn't stop staring at it. He smiled and got harder. He asked me to come in. He sat down on a leather chair and began to stroke his giant COCK as he asked what he could do for me. I continued staring at his COCK while I stammered out that I was having trouble sleeping because the upstairs neighbor was fucking loudly all night long, every night. He laughed and said that this was a gay building and that comes with the territory. I said I was confused, asking why he rented to me since I was a straight guy. He laughed and then whispered, you really believe that don't you? I blushed as He offered me a fudge brownie and a milk shake. I said no thanks but then he served me anyways and said that I looked pail and needed some sustenance. I found myself eating three brownies and drank the whole shake. 

All of a sudden everything started to spin. He told me that I had just eaten hash brownies and that the milk shake was a special cocktail of feminization drugs and bull and gorilla sperm and magic mushrooms. The room was spinning and I blacked out. I woke up on the floor at his feet. I was totally tripping, seeing trails and everything. My vision was distorted. He looked like a giant and I felt like a tiny girl. 

The next six months were a blur. He kept me tripping 24/7, dressed me as a sissy whore, and had everyone in the building use and abuse me as their slave. They all looked huge to me and I felt so small. In the beginning I remember flashes of gagging on the landlords giant COCK and screaming from being him fucking me in the ass, then I remember lots of other COCKS fucking me from both ends. In the beginning the flashes were intensely traumatic and painful but over time they became more and more erotic.

Now I live in a constant state of erotic bliss and COCK is my GOD. My favorite pastime now is kneeling at my MASTERS feet and serving his COCK.