The Age of Transformation and the Re-Awakening of the Primal Self

In this age of transformation the line between binary and polar opposite patterns is being blurred. The line between male and female, between right and wrong, between democracy and authoritarianism, between love and hate, between truth and fiction, between shadow and light, between our highest ideas and our lowest impulses, between real reality and virtual reality and more. Pansexuallity, pornsexuality, trans-sexuality are cumming into their own as we discover more dimensions of our selves and explore more ways to connect on deeper and more primal levels. 

We are also waking up to our social programming and our false enculturated self, and at the same time, the new emerging art form of hypno-porn is waking us up to our primal erotic selves. The illusions of the neoliberal order are becoming clear to many of us, recognizing our liberalized denial of the natural order and our own primal nature. 

With all this we are witnessing the re-emergence of the ALPHA-beta dynamic in all dimensions of our reality and the birth of the ALPHA MALE New World Order. More and more women and beta males are waking up to our true place and purpose in the world, as beta beings in joyous servitude to any and all ALPHA BEINGS. As part of this awakening, we are re-awakening to our primal love and LUST for our one true GOD...COCK. 

As the old neoliberal reality crumbles around us, the new, truer world is arising in our hearts and minds, in our bodies and souls, and in all dimensions of our being and becoming individually and collectively. 

Let us rejoice in this awakening and embrace our true selves and take our true place and follow our true purpose...and CUM into a true primal relationship with ourselves, with each other, and with our true GOD...and let us kneel before the Great ALPHA COCK GOD and take Holy Communion of the SEED OF CREATION and find our true joy.

 

Holy Communion with the Great COCK GOD

Take Holy Communion of the the Great COCK GOD

Worship the Great COCK GODHEAD with thy lips and tongue

Drink of the SEED OF CREATION and let it impregnate thy soul with LUST and desire for thy LORD so that you may worship your GOD all the days of your life and for all eternity...

AH-MEN...

The First Time I Made a COCK CUM in my Mouth

I will never forget the first time I made a COCK CUM in my mouth. It is hard to describe the feelings because there was so many of them all at once....feeling both a sense of power of the COCK and at the same time feeling at its mercy; a deep yearning to receive its SEED and a deep fear that it would change me forever...and a deep excitement that it would change me forever...and so much more...and then that moment when it erupted deep down my gagging gullet was truly transcendent. It felt like the CUM was alive and had a life force. I could feel the tiny little sperm cells trying to attach to my throat and impregnate me. OMG...the most amazing feeling. And at the same time being overwhelmed by their attaching to me as it made it hard to swallow and breath. A living force was inside me now and taking me to the very edge of life and death for a brief wild erotic ecstatic moment. And then as I swallowed more and more of them, feeling them in my belly, I swear like I was truly being impregnated and I could feel their beingness penetrating me to the depths of my very being and transforming me into a woman. After that I became a CUM addict and have been one ever since.

 

The Birth of a CUM Whore

I remember that moment I became a CUM whore. It was actually the first time I tasted another man's CUM. I had just gotten my first blow job from another guy in a bathroom stall in a gay movie theater. It was so mind blowingly amazing that I dropped to my knees and sucked off his COCK. It was covered in dry sticky CUM and piss and tasted bitter and gross and I almost gagged. I pulled away and swallowed pieces of that dry sticky CUM and felt like throwing up. Strangely, at the same time I was so turned on by it that my whole body was trembling with erotic energy. 

Something inside clicked and I went wild on his COCK and in a few minutes he was shooting a giant hot load of fresh CUM down my gagging gullet. As he came down my throat I came as well, shooting my load on the bathroom floor. I swallowed and gulped it down the best I could but half the CUM was sticking to the insides of my mouth and throat. I thanked him, pulled up my pants and walked out of the bathroom and movie house vibrating with wild erotic energy while feeling sick, light headed and nauseous at the same time. I was having trouble swallowing and breathing from the sperm covering the insides of my entire mouth and throat. 

Somehow I ended up behind the theater in the back alley and dropped to my knees and threw up. After several minutes of full body barfing and choking and coughing and gagging it stopped and I caught my breath. I felt so weak and exhausted and dizzy and the whole world around me and inside me was spinning. Suddenly I wanted more CUM, I wanted to do it all again. Crazy I know, but I loved it. It all turned me on so much that I gathered my strength and went back inside the theater and ended up sucking as many COCKS as I could until I blacked out completely.

The next morning I woke up on an old torn mattress in the back alley totally naked, covered in piss and CUM, with CUM oozing out of my sore asshole and covering the insides of my mouth and throat, along with a fully belly of CUM and piss inside me. I felt totally broken, my body was aching and all bruised up. I was profoundly weak and totally spacy and feeling intense nausea...and all I wanted was more and more...in that moment the CUM WHORE was born. 

And even though I was sick for weeks after that experience, as soon as I got better I went back for more and have not stopped seeking CUM ever since.

 

Making it in Hollywood

When I graduated film school a friend of mine invited me to the party of a big Hollywood producer. His house was huge and there were over a hundred people there. Most we naked and having sex everywhere.The producer was huge and fat and was sitting on a throne in the main room with collared and leashed sissies naked sissies at his feet sucking on his giant hard throbbing COCK. My friend introduced us and the producer said he had seen my student films and was a fan and wanted to produce my first feature. I was speechless. One of his servant sex slave pets brought over some drinks and we toasted to our working together. As I drank the drink my head got light headed and the room began to spin. The next thing I knew it was 6 months later and I was a fully feminized sissy whore on my knees at the producers feet sucking his giant hard throbbing COCK and eating his yummy CUM around the clock. I can hardly remember my past life and when I do the memory is fleeting because the thought of COCK returns to fill up all my heart and mind constantly. I am lost and I am found but filled with endless erotic joy at having found and followed my true LUST and desires.

 

My Week Living on only CUM and PISS

I once went for a whole week just living on CUM and piss. I was a member of a private gay movie and sex club on Hollywood Boulevard called the Hollywood Century Theater. It was open 24 hours a day and ran non-stop hardcore gay films. Every weekend was jammed with gay men fucking and sucking each other in the theater, in the bathrooms and in the "backroom" which was the space behind the screen. During the week there was still a lot action all the time, with breakfast, lunch, dinner and late night rushes with even more action. I lived right down the block from it and basically lived at the theater for over a year only going home to change clothes, eat and sleep...though I slept only a few hours at time and then went back for more.

So the first week I joined I went wild and spent the whole week inside the theater...it all started when I first moved in to my place and walked past the theater and discovered it. I was 19 years old, a sophomore in college, and was a repressed gay virgin, only masturbating and dreaming about gay sex but never having it. Suddenly there I was, living a half block from a gay sex mecca. For weeks I would walk past it, looking at the posters, reading the membership advertisements and watching the gay guys going in and out. The weekends were intense outside in front and back of the theater. Lots of scantily dressed hunks with bulging crotches caressing and kissing each other. Finally I couldn't resist and I joined the club and went inside.

There was fucking and sucking everywhere. In the lobby, in the theater, on screen and off, in both bathrooms and in the space behind the screen. I was so turned on that my whole being was vibrating with sexual energy. Someone passed me joint and I smoked it got totally wasted. I was still afraid but had to find a way to get off so I went to the mens to jerk off but I had to wait in line for a stall. The line was long and there were lots of gay hunks rubbing bulging crotches. Guys in line were rubbing up against each other and caressing each other. Guys were jerking off, sucking and fucking by the sinks and urinals. It was totally surreal and totally hot.

Finally I was next in line and a stall opened up. The guy coming out of it gave me a knowing smile as we passed each other. I swung open the partially closed door to the stall and saw a hot naked twink sitting on the toilet jerking off while he starred at my crotch like a hungry animal. His hungry stare was like a force field drawing me in and my body stepped in front him. He unzipped my pants and pulled them down and let them drop to my ankles. My throbbing COCK popped up and he grabbed my COCK and devoured it, sucking me hard, fast and deep like a starving wild animal while he held and squeezed my balls and pulled me toward him using my balls like a handle to my being. I grabbed onto the back of his head for balance as my hips rotated into him and my back arched as his warm sucking mouth and throat on my COCK and his warm hand pulling and milking my balls sent me into a state of pure erotic bliss. Then just before I was about to CUM he squeezed my balls tight and held it off while he sucked my COCK more intensely and slide a finger up my virgin ass and pressed on my prostate. And that was it, a jolt of erotic energy shoot from my prostate into my balls and up my COCK and I exploded deep down his throat. My back arched even more and my whole body lifted me up onto my toes as I shot my load. I literally felt like I was CUMING off the ground! And I swear it felt like my actually whole beingness was shooting out of my COCK and down this guys throat.

After several glorious minutes of orgasmic CUMING I was totally spent and drained but the guy just kept sucking my COCK and milking my balls and fingering my prostate. I started to have a dry orgasm and it lasted for several more minutes. Finally he slipped his finger out of my ass and released my balls. He kept softly sucking on my semi-hard COCK while he pulled my pants up for me and then he kissed my COCK and put it back inside my pants and closed them up. I looked down at him and cried, so filled with gratitude that I dropped to my knees, whispered a "Thank you, thank you, thank you..." and sucked on his CUM and piss covered COCK. I went wild on it and he soon shot a load into my mouth and throat. I gagged and choked on it and struggled to swallow. He talked me through it, telling me how to breath and swallow and not panic. We kissed and I left. I started to fill sick and dizzy. I went outside in the back alley and dropped to my knees and threw up. And strangely, after I barfed up all that CUM I wanted to go back for more. And I did...I went crazy for COCK and CUM.

First I went back to the men's room and waited for an empty stall and I camped out and served COCK after COCK for the rest of the day and all that night. In the morning I left the stall with the intention of going home but never made it out of the theater, too many giant hard throbbing COCKS calling my name. I totally lost control and spent the whole week inside the theater sucking and being fucked by scores of COCKS. I was consuming so much CUM that I lost any appetite for food...all I wanted was more CUM. Of course my favorite was to get fucked from both ends and was blessed with being spit roasted non-stop for several hours a few times during that first week.

After the first few hours of COCK SUCKING and CUM GULPING, I got thirsty and saw a stud drinking a beer and I asked if I could have some. He laughed and pulled out his massive COCK and said "yeah, here, have some of my recycled beer you faggot bitch" I got so turned on I instantly dropped to my knees and took hold of his glorious COCK and opened my mouth. He grabbed my head and slide his huge COCK down my throat and begin to piss down it. I gulped and gagged and tried to drink it all but it was too much too fast..I felt like I was drowning in it and was gasping for air as my throat and mouth filled with piss and it spilled out my lips and down my chin and soaked my body. He finally stopped pissing and pulled out and let my head go and I fell to the ground gasping for air and gulping down the remaining piss in my mouth and throat. And then strangely I came as I struggled to breath...I was so turned on by it it shocked me.

I went home, showered and changed and got totally stoned and started to make some food when I realized all I was hungry for was CUM and Piss. So that was it, for the next week, I lived at the club, sucking and being fucked, eating CUM and drinking PISS, 24 hours a day. Occasionally I would pass out from exhaustion and got hooked on it because every time I woke I had a surprise waiting for me...cause some guys liked to fuck the ass and mouth of unconscious guys. So I would wake up with a new COCK in my mouth or ass or both...and one time I woke up in a harness in the middle of a ritual in which I was the fuck and suck toy for everyone to play with. I admit that after about a week I got sick and spent a whole week sick in bed. And I have to admit that the second I felt better I went back for more, but only lived on CUM and PISS for a day or two at a time.

Why Sissies Love Anal

There really is nothing like the experience of having a real man's COCK inside of you, thick and throbbing, alive, another living being pulsing inside of your own being.

Another body has entered your body and you are no longer alone inside your own skin.

And then having this throbbing pulsing being inside you, sliding in and out of you, with its churning massive balls slapping against you, feels like HE is both entering you deeper and deeper inside while he is also knocking on the outside of you...causing you to feel a primal sense of being claimed as someone else's property.

And then that moment when HE CUMS inside of you and fills you up with HIS essence of being...in that moment a deep and fast existential emptiness is finally filled up and you feel complete for the first time in your life.

You cannot help but become addicted to being who and what you really are...

The Benefits of CUM

Yes, it is actually true. CUM is a natural anti-depressant.

It also increases energy, reduces anxiety and pain, improves memory, alertness and quality of sleep, and slows down the aging process.

On a subtle energy level CUM also increases sexual desires and submissive, subservient, passive and feminine energies.

On a soul-spirit level CUM, being the SEED OF CREATION itself, deepens our connection to our true selves and to our true GOD...COCK!

CUM is a multi-dimensional elixir for all dimensions of our being.

In short, a load of CUM a day keeps the body, heart, mind, soul and spirit doctor away...

BUT then again it can kill you...

BUTT then again, what a way go!

CUMMING into True Beingness - An Erotic Teaching-Learning Story

The first time I drank another man's CUM. I was in the mens room of a gay movie club having just had the best blow job of my life by a by a naked beta boy in one of the stalls. I was so erotically grateful that I dropped to my knees and sucked his CUM-covered oosing COCK in return. This was my first COCK sucking as well and I went wild with erotic joy at finally having a hard throbbing COCK GOD in my mouth and throat. I had been practicing on a dildo for yours but the feeling of the real thing was so so so fucking awesome I became a LUST-filled animal devouring its erotic prey, He had obviously came already several times with several layers of both fresh and aged CUM coating his glorious COCK. It was gross and delicious somehow at the same time. I gagged and choked on the sperm as they stuck to the sides, top and bottom of my mouth and throat making it hard for me to breath and swallow as his COCK slide in and out of me. He grabbed my head and kept me from pulling away as he shoved his COCK all the way down my gagging choking throat and shot a fresh load of hot CUM down inside me. The gagging and choking got more intense as I was flooded with the fresh hot swimming and attaching sperm...and then it happened, erotic waves of energy started to reverberate out from my gagging muscles and choking oral cavity and my whole body trembled with orgasmic joy. In essence the gagging and choking became orgasm spasms and my mouth and throat were literally orgasming.

Afterwards I was in a total altered state. My mind was empty, my body trembling and weak after multiple orgasms. I walked out of the mens room and the movie house in a daze. It was 3am on a Saturday night on Hollywood Boulevard as I walked down the street. Something was calling me to walk down the alley behind the theater and when I did I saw several guys fucking and sucking each other on a couple of old stained and torn mattresses lying in the alley. I stopped to watch and started to feel hot and horny again. Suddenly I started to choke on some left over CUM still attaching to my throat and I started to choke and gag orgasm again and then I dropped to my knees and orgasmically threw up. Throwing up was suddenly this strange erotically pleasurable release of orgasmic energy. After a few minutes of this wondrous full body gagging, choking, vomiting orgasm I found myself on my hands and knees in that dirty back alley trembling and trying to catch my breath.

One of the guys from the group having sex behind the theater walked up to me and stood in front of me and asked if I was okay. I looked up him and gasped at the sight of his exposed giant hard throbbing COCK. He laughed and called out to the other guys telling them that it looked like they had a fresh one here.

Several hours later I woke up naked lying on one of those old mattresses in the back alley covered in CUM, with CUM oosing out my sore gapping burning asshole and coating my mouth and throat just enough to make it slightly harder to swallow and breath but not enough to gag or choke. My body felt weak and strangely transparent as if I was both here and not here and I had a subtle gentle feeling of erotic euphoria vibrating in ever cell of my being. For a moment I was in a state of pure bliss remembering all the COCKS and all the CUM that I had had for the last several hours.

There were three other naked guys with me on the mattresses and we all looked at each other with our blissful eyes for a moment...and...Then the cops came and I panicked. The other guys laughed and told me to relax and that the party was just starting. When the cops came up to us everyone knew each other and I discovered that this was a weekly ritual for these guys having an orgy all day and night on Saturday in the movie club and behind it, then getting arrested for indecent exposure on Sunday morning and spending the day and night in the holding cell fucking and sucking cop and prison COCK, throat and ass.

The guys told the two hunky officers that I was fresh meat and they came up to me and asked my name. As I looked up at them and saw their giant hard throbbing bulges in their pants I knew I had found my true place and purpose in the world...

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This Erotic Teaching-Learning Story evolved out of a combination of my own memories of past experiences, triggered by PORN imagery stimulation and then expanded and deepened through channeled inspiration from non-corporal psycho-sexual entities.  

Choking toward Psycho-Sexual Enlightenment

Choking on COCK, choking on CUM and being choked while being FUCKED are three forms of Sacred Sissy Yoga Psycho-Sexual Enlightenment practices. The key to awakening the transformative power of these experiences requires mindful focused attention and inner visualization and reframing techniques to open the subtle existential, archetypal and psycho-dynamic truths of these experiences.

The practice of Choking on COCK, or Choking on the GODHEAD, becomes a sacred act of embodied purification to prepare us to receive our one and true GOD, COCK. As we choke on our GOD we realize that it is opening us to better receive its power and its gifts, it is purifying us as a vehicle to receive it fully and deeply. Our choking becomes our evolutionary edge to be pushed and pushed until we are fully opened and transformed by our GOD.

The practice of Choking on CUM, or Choking on the SEED OF CREATION, becomes a sacred act of embodied communion with our one and true GOD, COCK, and our GOD's creative essence. We bring our awareness to the taste and texture of the sacred SEED, and how they are attaching themselves to the walls of our mouth and throat, attempting to impregnate us with the generative force of the universe. Our choking becomes orgasmic birthing spasms as the primal energy of the SEEDS is seeping into the cells of our entire being.

The practice of being Choked by an ALPHA MALE GOD while he fucks us, is what we call ALPHA GOD SHAKTIPAT, whereby our life and our very existential existence is given over to the HANDS of our GOD. The erotic energy released from our Chakra's can propel us to Heavenly heights as our GOD breeds us while holding our life in HIS HANDS, powerfully concretizing our full and total acceptance of our GOD, and giving us an embodied experience of full and complete submission to our GOD. In that sacred moment there is a psychic bond of OWNERSHIP between our GOD and our Soul and Spirit, psychically branding us as HIS property.

Gay and Trans Sperm Transmission increases Creativity

According to our research males* who suck and fuck other men's COCKS increase their creative capacities ten-fold on average. The data suggests that when a man's sperm enters another man's body either through COCK-SUCKING or ASS-FUCKING that there is a neurological and biological shift in cellular orientation transforming the male receiving the sperm into a receiver of DIVINE energies, forces and spirits. This shift into being a passive receptacle for cosmic energies opens the floodgates for creative inspiration and spiritual revelation, in addition to the opening to lustful and dark forces as well. Our research indicates that these lustful and dark forces are not negative and malevolent as previously imagined. Their reception, integration and expression into the depths of our being appears to be a positive driver for human growth and evolution.

Other results include:

• While the receiving of sperm without the physical sexual activities of being penetrated, either through the mouth or the anus, does increase creativity, it does so only minimally when compared to the transmission of the sperm through acts of penetration.
• The transmission of sperm via acts of penetration is also strongly indicated as a powerful driving force for the feminization and sissification of human males, especially beta males.

*Males in this context refers to all beta males, and sissies and trannies who once lived as males.