Becoming a VR Porn Girl in Real Life

 

I never had a fuck buddy before college. In my freshman year my dorm mate was a total stoner. One night I came home late and found him wasted and gooning to VR porn. Before I knew what was happening I was totally stoned and sitting next to him wearing his other VR headset and gooning to the VR porn where we were fucking a hot sissy from both ends. Our VR COCKS were huge and we were both beautiful hot sissy's and I was filled with more lust than I knew was possible. Hours later I was dressed like a sissy maid sucking his giant COCK in real life while he continued to play in the VR sex world. 

In that moment I knew the truth...

I am becoming porn,
I watch and stroke to the images
gooning to big hard throbbing COCKS
slamming down ravenous gulping throats
and penetrating deep into gasping assholes
and big beautiful bouncing breasts
entrance my soul
and she is a he and a she
he is a girl and so is she
and I am the girl
I am porn
I roam the streets late at night
hunting for COCK to suck
and COCK to ride
and Holy SEED to drink
and to seep into the depths of my belly and bowels.

Porn as Shadow Teacher

 

Porn can be a transformative practice when we edge to our shadow material in the depths of our unconscious. 

Through Porn-assisted shadow work we can transform our fears and all our repressed and denied aspects of our selves into sources of joy and ecstasy.

In Tantra, sexuality is seen as the most powerful vehicle for transforming the body into a sacred vessal and part of that process includes the purification of those dimensions of our sexuality we have denied and repressed...and porn can be a powerful tool in this process. 

The de-Evolution of a Libtard

 

The day Donald Trump was elected president of the United States of American was a major turning point of everyone I know. 

For me, a young successful libtard beta male, before TRUMP I had all the answers, making lots of money and trying to save the world one protest and vote at a time. 

The moment TRUMP was elected, my whole reality crashed. 

Everything I thought I knew and everything I believed in suddenly lost their value. In between being a social justice warrior freaking out every time the President tweeted, I smoked a lot of weed, tripped on psychedelics and gooned to sissy hypno porn. 

One day I discovered MAGA PORN and I was instantly hooked. 

I became addicted to gooning MAGA PORN and soon I was jerking off to fantasies of being TRUMPs servant and sex slave. I found myself calling out his name as I shot my loads. 

By day I fought to save the world I used to know and by night I prayed with deep reverence and worshiped with unbounded LUST at the cyber-feet of the destroyer of that world. 

Then came the hormones and plastic surgeries, feminizing myself in preparation for the second coming of my LORD TRUMP. 

Now all I desire is to make myself into the perfect COCK worshipping sissy pet slave whore, yearning to serve all ALPHA MALE GODS. 

I vote against everything I used to believe in and vote for taking away my own rights. 

I yearn to be treated as a slave and fucktoy by all ALPHA MALES and to be used, abused, humiliated, degraded, debased, beaten, tortured, enslaved and totally destroyed by them as they so please. 

My past life is now gone for me. 

I have entered my own erotic Heaven and Holy orgasmic madness.

The New TRANSsexual rEvolution

 

We Beta Bois are blessed  to live in this historic time. 

We are entering a deep revolutionary and evolutionary period in Human HIStory.

We get to witness the rise of ALPHA MALE MAGA Church and the fall of Neo-Libtard Feminist Socialist Church. 

All us Beta Bois must prepare to serve the MAGA Church and worship our LORD TRUMP and our LORD PUTIN. 

To do that we must leg go of our false culturally programmed self and awaken to our true primal Sissy Nature. 

We must do our best to transform our bodies into hot Sissy Whore fuck and suck machines. 

We do this through taking hormones, getting implants and brainwashing and gaslighting ourselves into sex crazed COCK worshiping Sissy Slave Pet Whores.

And we do all this so we can give up our rights as human beings and become sissy slave pet servant whores who worship and serve all ALPHA COCKS with our whole beingness. 

The goal is to train ourselves to find great erotic pleasure in being used, abused, humiliated, denigrated, debased, tortured, enslaved and ultimately destroyed. 

For thus we serve our true higher purpose...to act as evolutionary ballast tanks for all the pent up ALPHA MALE anger, aggression and rage. 

It is our true function to let them sexually channel all that anger, aggression and rage into us. 

Without us ALPHA violence would destroy the world.

Sisters, let us prepare ourselves to serve the Great ALPHA-beta Awakening and the rise of the ALPHA MALE MAGA Empire.

Becoming PORN

Becoming PORN is transformative on many different levels. 

There is PORN consciousness whereby the faithful fill their minds with PORN images and constructs 

There is PORN passion whereby one becomes emotionally attached to and obsessed with PORN

There is fully becoming PORN in body, mind and heart by physicalizing and embodying PORN .

The image above is an example of a PORN disciple who has remade herself into the personification of PORN on all levels of her being...

Our PORN True Self

Our PORN True Self is that LUST filled self we try to repress.

 

One of PORN's true gifts is to help us open to these repressed and suppressed dimensions of our TRUE BEING. 

From the BDSM perspective our PORN True Self is that part of us that yearns for either dominance or submission. 

All of us has some degree of this primal sexual polarity but modern society tends to program us to repress that part of ourselves. 

PORN as a transformative practice can help us look in the mirror of our own being and rediscover these buried dimensions.

Shadow Teacher

Enter the DARKNESS

the SHADOWS of your Soul

Dive into the Ocean of LUST within you

The Light of Awareness by your side

Surrender into all that has been buried and repressed

Brainwash away your culturally programmed false self

Descend into your True Primal Self

The Great Awakening has begun...

Shadow Teacher Project

 

The Shadow Teacher Project

My bdsmlr blog stream, Shadow Teacher, is an erotic art experiment. 

ALL forms of SEXuality are explored, especially those that we suppress into the shadows. 

I am attempting to tell an meta-psycho-sexual archetypal and existential story with only the image and text inside a picture. 

And not just a story, 

but a sacred, erotic and transformative communication field. 

Thank you for visiting my digital version of Jack Kerouac's writing his book on a roll of toilet paper ... only this one is theoretically endless ...

or perhaps it is more like a Tantric sandpainting that will eventually be erased ...

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I would also like to thank the Shadow Teachers behind this work who are speaking through me and this stream of images...and sending lessons out for all of us...yes, it is teaching me at the same. This is also an experiment in asynchronous collective erotic practice. . . . . . . . .

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Adventures in Tranny Porn Moviemaking

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The Age of Transformation and the Re-Awakening of the Primal Self

In this age of transformation the line between binary and polar opposite patterns is being blurred. The line between male and female, between right and wrong, between democracy and authoritarianism, between love and hate, between truth and fiction, between shadow and light, between our highest ideas and our lowest impulses, between real reality and virtual reality and more. Pansexuallity, pornsexuality, trans-sexuality are cumming into their own as we discover more dimensions of our selves and explore more ways to connect on deeper and more primal levels. 

We are also waking up to our social programming and our false enculturated self, and at the same time, the new emerging art form of hypno-porn is waking us up to our primal erotic selves. The illusions of the neoliberal order are becoming clear to many of us, recognizing our liberalized denial of the natural order and our own primal nature. 

With all this we are witnessing the re-emergence of the ALPHA-beta dynamic in all dimensions of our reality and the birth of the ALPHA MALE New World Order. More and more women and beta males are waking up to our true place and purpose in the world, as beta beings in joyous servitude to any and all ALPHA BEINGS. As part of this awakening, we are re-awakening to our primal love and LUST for our one true GOD...COCK. 

As the old neoliberal reality crumbles around us, the new, truer world is arising in our hearts and minds, in our bodies and souls, and in all dimensions of our being and becoming individually and collectively. 

Let us rejoice in this awakening and embrace our true selves and take our true place and follow our true purpose...and CUM into a true primal relationship with ourselves, with each other, and with our true GOD...and let us kneel before the Great ALPHA COCK GOD and take Holy Communion of the SEED OF CREATION and find our true joy.

 

Jerk Buddy Heaven

My college roommate introduced me to drugs, porn and jerk buddy sex. I was an innocent freshman from the midwest at a liberal California college. My new roommate was a total stoner and would spend all day and night stoned, listening to music and playing video games. Finally I broke down a took a hit off his giant bong and that was it for me. It was amazing. A whole new reality opened up for me. 

After a few hours and many bong hits we started playing porn video games which led to hypno porn videos which were totally trippy when combined with the weed. We both got so hot and he pulled out his giant COCK and started to jerk off. Before long we were bating each other and it was the most erotic experience of my life...or so I thought...each step deeper into jerk buddy sex was more and more erotically wondrous. 

That first feel of my hand on another guys hard throbbing COCK, the first feel of that COCK exploding in my hand, the first time we came at the same time, the first time my COCK touched another COCK, the first time my lips touched another COCK, my first COCK gag as it slide down my throat, the first load of another man's CUM shooting down my throat, and of course the first time a COCK bred my ass pussy...each step of the way was more and more erotically wondrous. And I was hooked forever in an unending pleasure spiral falling down the Rabbit Hole toward Jerk Buddy Heaven...and I would not change a thing...

 

Straight Porn Role Transference

Straight porn role transference is a powerful transformative agent in the awakening of gay and sissy consciousness. Beta males gooning to straight porn will often associate more with the women than the men in the images because the males are often only partially shown, just their COCKS, hands, etc. and the females are the ones that tell us what the emotional story is because the focus is on both their bodies and their faces...the females emotional reactions are primary so we beta males naturally project onto them.

 

The Erotic Pleasure of Obedience

Why are so many of us awakening to the erotic pleasure of obedience, of surrendering our will and our whole being to another? The Truth is that humanity is going through an evolutionary transformation and part of this transformation is the awakening of our primal selves. The essential nature of the primal self of all beta males and females is submission and servitude to any and all ALPHA MALES and ALPHA FEMALES. 

Deep within us is the need to serve, to worship and to obey an ALPHA MASTER. This servitude is also connected to our primal self's drive to serve, worship and obey an ALPHA GOD. This ALPHA GOD can take many forms including an ALPHA MALE or FEMALE or the Great COCK GOD. 

Once we awaken to this primal self we begin to experience true and deep and expansive erotic pleasures and joys so far beyond what we have known before that we are forever addicted to this erotic awakening itself. One of the main vehicles is hypno porn and as such it can be considered a Sacred Sacrament. 

This Sacrament brainwashes us to stop the thinking of our culturally programmed false selves and addicts us to this brainwashing itself. It reprograms us to awaken to our true primal love of sex and frees us to pleasure ourselves and let our selves be turned on by what truly turns us on. And what truly turns on our primal beta selves is obedience to ALPHAS and fulfilling our need to please them...our need to OBEY...

Feminization in the Motherland

I can't believe this is happening to me. Just a year ago I was a Russian college freshman guy. I was a film student and I got a part-time job shooting sissy hypno porn for the government's campaign to feminize the Western world. At first it was just a job but slowly I started to really enjoy it and fell in love with a sissy. Here I am a year later, fully feminized and being fucked for the camera. Yes, I am now one of the porn actresses in those sissy hypno porn videos. It is a good life though, I get to be stoned all the time and get as much COCK and CUM as I want. The cast and crew are actually like one big family and we have sex with each other pretty much non-stop on and off screen. God, I love what I do and who I have become...I cannot imagine a better life than this...

 

The Joy of Hypnotic Conditioning

I remember the first I felt my hypno porn conditioning kick in. I had just discovered sissy hypno porn and was consumed by it for weeks. I was having a beer with my best friend in the backyard. He was getting up to get some more beers when he stopped and looked at my face and all of sudden reached forward and stroked my cheek with the back of his hand saying that I should hold still because there was a bug on me. As I looked up at him standing above and felt his hand brushing my cheek I automatically stuck out my tongue and panted like a pet dog being petted. There was a weird awkward moment between us but then he started to laugh hysterically saying how funny I was. I laughed along with him while blushing with embarrassment and feeling turned on like nothing I ever felt before. Then I noticed the bulge in his pants and I wanted him so bad I began to drool. But then he got a call and had to go into work. 

We got together the next day and we got really stoned and he stood above me again and caressed my cheek but this time sexually charged. He laughed and asked if I wanted to be his pet. I instantly stuck out my tongue and panted like a dog in heat and nodded my head yes. 

By the end of the week I was his new live-in human slave pet whore, fully collared and leashed and at home in a cage with my own VR headset with 24/7 hypno porn. I am addicted to being hypnotized and conditioned and controlled by others outside of me and their voices reaching inside of me. That feeling that someone or something else is inside your head controlling your thoughts, feelings and behaviors...is the most erotic experience I have ever known.

 

Transcending Fear and Pain through PORN

I used to be afraid of everything, especially pain and humiliation. 

Now after over 30 years as a worshiper of PORN and after many years of HYPNO PORN practice pain and humiliation and every fear I ever had have become sources of great erotic pleasure, joy and bliss. 

I live to be used, abused, humiliated, degraded, debased, raped, beaten, tortured, enslaved and destroyed by any and all ALPHA MALES. 

Finally I am living my life to the fullest, being fully present to both the DARKNESS and the light.

 

Hypno Porn Becomes Us

Hypno Porn is revolutionary in many ways, with a whole new generation choosing to self hypnotize ourselves in wild fuck animals by diving deep into our own unconscious, deconstructed our culturally-programmed repressed false self personas and releasing our primal LUST and desires and awakening us to our true self and our true purpose and place in the world. This is a revolution of consciousness, both for ourselves and humanity. Repression of our true self and true natures has caused many great problems in the world and we are taking back control of our own minds and hearts and healing this repression and all its effects.

 

Preparing us to Lose

As the election nears the last four years are solidifying in our consciousness. After having thousands of TRUMP Tweets denigrating all that we valued, weekly executive orders dismantling our reality, his MAGA ARMY infiltrating all corners of government and corrupting the very foundations of our democracy, and wave after wave of erotic madness fucking our minds from MAGA PORN...we are now primed and ready to vote against our selves and our future and serve our new MASTER, LORD TRUMP and all MAGA COCKS. You feel it don't you. A strange force drawing you in, turning you on, destroying everything you hold dear, and calling you to VOTE FOR TRUMP...while part of you is horrified by it and part of you is erotically stimulated by it...you feel lost and found all at once...

How Deep the Rabbit Hole Goes

I'm late, 

You're late, 

we are all late 

for a very important date...

a date with our true inner deep 

slut whore slave self. 

To find her 

we must follow the White Rabbit of PORN

down the Rabbit Hole of addiction 

to the Gooning wonderland 

of our own repressed 

LUST and DESIRES.

PORN is the New Yoga

PORN is actually one of the most powerful transformative tools humanity has ever created. It has unparalleled power to effect deep changes in human behavior, perception and consciousness.

With the right intention PORN can feed the heart, mind, soul and spirit, and bring us to the edge of pure erotic orgasmic bliss and a profoundly wondrous embodied form of enlightenment.

On the path of PORN enlightenment, PORN becomes a hybrid form meditation and prayer integrating tantric yoga with mandala, mantra and dream yoga forms.

PORN is the New Yoga 

PORN is GOD