Becoming a VR Porn Girl in Real Life

 

I never had a fuck buddy before college. In my freshman year my dorm mate was a total stoner. One night I came home late and found him wasted and gooning to VR porn. Before I knew what was happening I was totally stoned and sitting next to him wearing his other VR headset and gooning to the VR porn where we were fucking a hot sissy from both ends. Our VR COCKS were huge and we were both beautiful hot sissy's and I was filled with more lust than I knew was possible. Hours later I was dressed like a sissy maid sucking his giant COCK in real life while he continued to play in the VR sex world. 

In that moment I knew the truth...

I am becoming porn,
I watch and stroke to the images
gooning to big hard throbbing COCKS
slamming down ravenous gulping throats
and penetrating deep into gasping assholes
and big beautiful bouncing breasts
entrance my soul
and she is a he and a she
he is a girl and so is she
and I am the girl
I am porn
I roam the streets late at night
hunting for COCK to suck
and COCK to ride
and Holy SEED to drink
and to seep into the depths of my belly and bowels.

The de-Evolution of a Libtard

 

The day Donald Trump was elected president of the United States of American was a major turning point of everyone I know. 

For me, a young successful libtard beta male, before TRUMP I had all the answers, making lots of money and trying to save the world one protest and vote at a time. 

The moment TRUMP was elected, my whole reality crashed. 

Everything I thought I knew and everything I believed in suddenly lost their value. In between being a social justice warrior freaking out every time the President tweeted, I smoked a lot of weed, tripped on psychedelics and gooned to sissy hypno porn. 

One day I discovered MAGA PORN and I was instantly hooked. 

I became addicted to gooning MAGA PORN and soon I was jerking off to fantasies of being TRUMPs servant and sex slave. I found myself calling out his name as I shot my loads. 

By day I fought to save the world I used to know and by night I prayed with deep reverence and worshiped with unbounded LUST at the cyber-feet of the destroyer of that world. 

Then came the hormones and plastic surgeries, feminizing myself in preparation for the second coming of my LORD TRUMP. 

Now all I desire is to make myself into the perfect COCK worshipping sissy pet slave whore, yearning to serve all ALPHA MALE GODS. 

I vote against everything I used to believe in and vote for taking away my own rights. 

I yearn to be treated as a slave and fucktoy by all ALPHA MALES and to be used, abused, humiliated, degraded, debased, beaten, tortured, enslaved and totally destroyed by them as they so please. 

My past life is now gone for me. 

I have entered my own erotic Heaven and Holy orgasmic madness.

Waking Up from Feminism

 

Feminism has had both positive and negative impacts on both women and men. Recently, many believe it has gone too far by denying certain hard scientific truths about the sexes. 

Since LORD TRUMP took office the Great Awakening slowly let to an awakening to the limits of feminism, and basically all isms. The "grab them by the pussy line" turned on a lot of Libtard women and beta males. 

This is a primal awakening. LORD TRUMP is the first truly ALPHA MALE BULLY to take the reigns of US Presidential Power.

His ALPHA MALE energy is re-igniting the passionate dynamics between the classical ALPHA-beta Masculine-Feminine polarities.

High Heels Heal the Feminine Sissy Soul

 The first time I tried on high heels I was blown away. I had no idea they were sex tools...OMG...designed to force the female body into a submissive, seductive and vulnerable "fuck me" position. I almost came just standing in them. 

There was something healing about the high heels. Wearing them wakened and embodied the woman trapped inside me. The heels seemed to set her free and "heal" that which was suppressing her. 

I believe high heels are powerful tantric tools because they shift our bodies into an erotic energy inducing position.

The New TRANSsexual rEvolution

 

We Beta Bois are blessed  to live in this historic time. 

We are entering a deep revolutionary and evolutionary period in Human HIStory.

We get to witness the rise of ALPHA MALE MAGA Church and the fall of Neo-Libtard Feminist Socialist Church. 

All us Beta Bois must prepare to serve the MAGA Church and worship our LORD TRUMP and our LORD PUTIN. 

To do that we must leg go of our false culturally programmed self and awaken to our true primal Sissy Nature. 

We must do our best to transform our bodies into hot Sissy Whore fuck and suck machines. 

We do this through taking hormones, getting implants and brainwashing and gaslighting ourselves into sex crazed COCK worshiping Sissy Slave Pet Whores.

And we do all this so we can give up our rights as human beings and become sissy slave pet servant whores who worship and serve all ALPHA COCKS with our whole beingness. 

The goal is to train ourselves to find great erotic pleasure in being used, abused, humiliated, denigrated, debased, tortured, enslaved and ultimately destroyed. 

For thus we serve our true higher purpose...to act as evolutionary ballast tanks for all the pent up ALPHA MALE anger, aggression and rage. 

It is our true function to let them sexually channel all that anger, aggression and rage into us. 

Without us ALPHA violence would destroy the world.

Sisters, let us prepare ourselves to serve the Great ALPHA-beta Awakening and the rise of the ALPHA MALE MAGA Empire.

My First Gay Blow Job

I remember my first real blow job by another man. It was like nothing I ever experienced before or even imagined possible. 

 

He was sitting on a toilet in a men's room inside a gay movie theater club in LA. I was totally drunk and stoned when I entered the mens room stall and stood in front of him. He was staring like a wild hungry animal at my bulging crotch. Without a thought I pulled the drawstring on my cotton yoga pants and they dropped to my ankles. My COCK popped up and he devoured it and went wild, holding and squeezing my balls and pulling my whole body into him while the finger of his other hand slide across my ass cheek and into my ass. He began to gently massage my prostate in sync with his COCK SUCKING. I grabbed his head for balance while my back naturally arched and my whole body lifted up onto my toes.  

 

It was a wild few minutes and when I shot my load it was with a force beyond anything I imagined possible and I felt like my whole body lifted off the ground as a bolt of erotic energy shot through all dimensions of my being. Up to that moment, that was the most powerful, profound and rewarding experience of my life. Every award, every scholarship, every achievement paled in comparison. I was so blown away and in awe and filled with gratitude to him and to GOD that I cried tears of joy as I automatically dropped to my knees and whispered "Oh my God, thank you, thank you, thank you"  

 

I took hold of his throbbing COCK that was covered in CUM and precum that had built up from his multiple orgasms from sucking scores of COCKS that day in that stall. Without a thought I devoured his COCK like a hungry animal just like he did to me. It tasted sour and salty and strangely gross and delicious at the same time. It was like the grossness of it turned me on in a strange metaphysical esoteric way. And I loved sucking his COCK. I was so turned on as he got bigger and harder in my mouth and his throbbing shaft slide down my tongue and pushed through my glottal opening and down throat...and back up again.  

 

When he shot his hot load I drank it with wild abandon...swallowing and gagging on his load as it clung to the insides of my mouth and throat. When he finished I sucked him for a few more minutes until he tapped me on the shoulder and whispered...thank you... I looked up into his eyes and we had a brief existential "seeing" of each other. And then I pulled up pants and left. There was a line of men waiting for head and as I walked past them I felt their eyes looking at me like I was a piece of meat and they were wild ravenous animals.  

 

I got instantly hard again and they really took notice focusing on my bulge in front and my ass behind. I loved that feeling. I wanted them to pounce on me and fuck all my holes and fill me with loads of CUM. My head was spinning and I ended in the alley out behind the movie club. There was an old torn CUM covered mattress on the ground behind the theater and some hunks in the shadows taking drugs and having sex.  

 

I started to feel sick and dropped to my knees and started to gag, cough and throw up CUM. After several minutes I caught my breath. I was able to swallow a big glob of CUM from the back of my throat and was able to swallow and breath again...gasping and panting for more air. I felt sick to my stomach still but now it was also churning with something else...a strange hunger for more CUM. Yes, I wanted more...I wanted the gross taste, I wanted the gagging, I wanted the trouble swallowing and breathing...I loved drowning in another man's CUM... I even licked my lips and wiped some CUM off my face and licked it off my fingers. I gagged a little and shivered with erotic energy and smiled. I heard laughter from the shadows and felt shame...which strangely turned me on even more.  

 

Then a voice drifted out saying..."Welcome to the club, brother". I smiled and knew I was no longer the same person I was just a few hours ago.

The Art and Sacred Nature of Hypno Porn

Hypno porn is a relatively new genre of porn movie making that takes the art of porn to new levels and introduces Tantric processes into the world of porn. This elevation is in terms of both aesthetics and transformational intensions. 

For example, the Sissymaker series from Emperor Hypnos combines penetrating images, trance inducing sound and powerful experiences that can awaken deep dimensions of the individual consciousness of the viewer and the viewers access to the collective consciousness that connects them to the rest of their fellow travelers in this world of Samsara...

Sissymaker 5 - powered by Hypnotube

Some hpno porns go even deeper, especially sissy hypno, which can reach a profoundly impactful viewing experience, potentially transforming all dimensions of your being:

Beginning Occult Personality Destruction - powered by Hypnotube

MAGA-tized Bimbo Awakening

It is happening 

Slowly at first

Then all of a sudden

They are everywhere.

The Bimbofication of Amerika and the world

The death of feminism and liberalism

Turning libtard girls and beta bois

into sex crazed bimbo sluts 

serving the MAGA revolution

LORD TRUMP

grabbed the pussy

in the heart of every beta being on the planet

the Great Bimbo Awakening has begun...

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This post is a form of collective shadow work, It is part of my attempt to dive into our repressed shadow material and attempt to transcend the darkness while including the gifts hidden in the darkness. I use a hybrid integral and metamodern tantric approach, going deep into the darkness and putting a mirror up to its true nature while also attempting to channel and release the pent up energy around these shadows. I have been doing this because I believe humanity is facing a major evolutionary transition and that our very survival of a species is at stake.

 

Report from a Spy Mission inside the MAGA Underground

 

Surfing the DARK PORN web

The Great Wave of the Great Awakening is Awakening

Below the surface of the decaying civilization and planet

A Strange Fever is taking hold

an evolutionary revolution

and it feels like both Light and DARK FORCEs are behind it all

There is a madness and a LUST 

CUMming from beyond the beyond

All across the world libtard beta bois are gooning into a frenzy 

feeding off the other-worldly erotic energy of MAGA PORN

Imagining being MAGA girls serving MAGA COCK

Lost Souls on the way to Erotic Enlightenment

forsaking all 

to worship and OBEY...

The Holy Trinity of 

the Sacred Scriptures of Q, 

the Holy Sacrament of MAGA 

and the Anti-Christ Christ channeling through 

our New GOD and MASTER, 

LORD TRUMP...

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This post is part of a new form of metamodern sex research where I try to capture the underlying energy of the subject I am studying. Here I am attempting to use abstract poetic languaging in an attempt to capture the energy of this surging underground movement.

Adventures in Tranny Porn Moviemaking

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The Russians are CUMING

According to my research the Russians are in the middle of a global-scale reeducation process using all forms of media, including porn, to reprogram all the world's minorities, women and beta males into their willing sex slaves. The rise of authoritarianism and white nationalism is all part of it, as well as the Q and MAGA movements, along with a mass feminization programming of beta males and bimbofication programming of women. 

Now that they have hacked our government and corporate computer networks, installed comrade TRUMP in office for four years to gaslight the American population and invade all branches of government with Russian MAGA operatives, their next phase is beginning. Both the Covid-19 virus and vaccine are Russian nanotech creations designed to turn all inferior races and sexes into their docile programmed slaves. 

They are amassing their military in the arctic, preparing for the CUMING invasion, and they are sending advance Russian ALPHA MALE studs out all over America to drug, rape, seduce and reprogram American women and beta males one on one. 

With the help of the RED Republicans, LORD TRUMP will be re-installed to power by 2024 and if the Libtards find a way to stop it, the RED army will invade and make sure Amerika is Great Again!

 

The Age of Transformation and the Re-Awakening of the Primal Self

In this age of transformation the line between binary and polar opposite patterns is being blurred. The line between male and female, between right and wrong, between democracy and authoritarianism, between love and hate, between truth and fiction, between shadow and light, between our highest ideas and our lowest impulses, between real reality and virtual reality and more. Pansexuallity, pornsexuality, trans-sexuality are cumming into their own as we discover more dimensions of our selves and explore more ways to connect on deeper and more primal levels. 

We are also waking up to our social programming and our false enculturated self, and at the same time, the new emerging art form of hypno-porn is waking us up to our primal erotic selves. The illusions of the neoliberal order are becoming clear to many of us, recognizing our liberalized denial of the natural order and our own primal nature. 

With all this we are witnessing the re-emergence of the ALPHA-beta dynamic in all dimensions of our reality and the birth of the ALPHA MALE New World Order. More and more women and beta males are waking up to our true place and purpose in the world, as beta beings in joyous servitude to any and all ALPHA BEINGS. As part of this awakening, we are re-awakening to our primal love and LUST for our one true GOD...COCK. 

As the old neoliberal reality crumbles around us, the new, truer world is arising in our hearts and minds, in our bodies and souls, and in all dimensions of our being and becoming individually and collectively. 

Let us rejoice in this awakening and embrace our true selves and take our true place and follow our true purpose...and CUM into a true primal relationship with ourselves, with each other, and with our true GOD...and let us kneel before the Great ALPHA COCK GOD and take Holy Communion of the SEED OF CREATION and find our true joy.

 

A Covid Sissy Conversion Story

I was backpacking through Europe when Covid hit and I met this wonderful German couple who took me in. He said he was a doctor and he gave me all sorts of free medicine, pills and shots to keep me strong and healthy through the pandemic. She was a hypnotherapist and she gave me free stress reduction hypnotherapy every day as well, saying that it was important to manage stress during these challenging times. By the time I realized they were giving me feminization drugs and hypnotizing me to be their sissy slave whore it was too late...once I knew what was happening I not only didn't care, but I loved it and wanted more. Now a year later I am their fully feminized sissy slave whore and I am so excited now that the isolation period is much less severe and I get to service all their friends and family as well. I love my new MASTERS and have never been happier or more fulfilled.

 

Straight Porn Role Transference

Straight porn role transference is a powerful transformative agent in the awakening of gay and sissy consciousness. Beta males gooning to straight porn will often associate more with the women than the men in the images because the males are often only partially shown, just their COCKS, hands, etc. and the females are the ones that tell us what the emotional story is because the focus is on both their bodies and their faces...the females emotional reactions are primary so we beta males naturally project onto them.

 

The Transformative Potential of Wearing a COCK Cage

I will never forget the first time I wore a cage. It felt like it shifted my entire field of self awareness. Suddenly my boi pussy became the center of my erotic energy field. My awareness of a feminine part of myself that before this felt like it was buried deep inside me, suddenly shifted so that I "she" was now totally released and filled my whole being with her beingness...I finally felt the "sheness" I had always sensed was who I was. Before that "sheness" was growing nearer and nearer but suddenly now, "she" was fully and completely home...

 

Transcending Boundaries

I AM ME, I AM YOU, I AM SHE, I AM HE, I AM YOU, I AM ME...

 

Covid Sex Madness

I have been in quarantine for 9 months...I have long haul covid...I have been doing sissy hypnos and hormones for 2 years...and I broke down and have gone completely mad...I went on Craig's List and laid it all out and said I was ready to serve any ALPHA MALE who tested positive for Covid. 

I have sucked and fucked so many Covid COCKS I have lost count now...I have been in the hospital four times now and on the edge of life and death all four times. I do not know what is wrong with me, I have gone insane...but it is a strange kind of sacred madness. 

Facing death, looking it straight in the face, is profoundly transformational. I am in the present moment more fully and deeply than ever before and feel the beauty and power of both life and death more and more with each day and with each COCK that I serve. I feel like I am fulfilling a higher and deeper purpose by serving the ALPHA COCKS that no one wants to serve. I feel like I am truly and deeply serving the Great COCK GOD, and my LORD and MA

 

Embracing our Primal Selves

The goal of transformative sexuality is for us to transcend our culturally-programmed false self and awaken to our true primal selves, to embrace our inner animal nature, our true LUSTS and desires, to live from our truth and not to repress or deny who and what we really are. The call is to dive deep into our true being, to embrace our inner animal, our primal nature, our darkness, our shadows, to release all pent up repressed energies and to become a FUCK ANIMAL...only then can we transcend all that has held us back from living a full and true life, only then can we awaken to our deeper and higher selves...and become who and what we were meant to be...

 

Hitchhiking into Sissy Slavery

On a bet I dressed up as a sissy slut and hitch hiked up in the redneck mountains outside the city. I ended up being kidnapped, drugged, raped, tortured and enslaved to a MAGA militia prepper who keeps me locked in a cage when I am not being used and abused as a rape toy by him and all his MAGA militia prepper friends. 

Turns out my friends were captured before I was and were sent back out into the world to bring more slaves into the fold. When I was first enslaved there was four of us living in those cages and ten slave recruiters out in the world, now six months later there are 18 of us in cages and 36 of us out in the world as recruiters. They are keeping the numbers steady and once we recruit ten people on our own we are shipped off to serve other MAGA ARMY gangs around the world. They love to fuck us before and after they go out looking for libtards and minorities to beat up and terrorize. As crazy as it sounds but after the first few weeks of extreme torture and programming, I have loved every minute of it and am honored to serve my MAGA MASTERS.

 

Feminization in the Motherland

I can't believe this is happening to me. Just a year ago I was a Russian college freshman guy. I was a film student and I got a part-time job shooting sissy hypno porn for the government's campaign to feminize the Western world. At first it was just a job but slowly I started to really enjoy it and fell in love with a sissy. Here I am a year later, fully feminized and being fucked for the camera. Yes, I am now one of the porn actresses in those sissy hypno porn videos. It is a good life though, I get to be stoned all the time and get as much COCK and CUM as I want. The cast and crew are actually like one big family and we have sex with each other pretty much non-stop on and off screen. God, I love what I do and who I have become...I cannot imagine a better life than this...