Tuesday, December 6, 2022

My First Gay Blow Job



I remember my first real blow job by another man. It was like nothing I ever experienced before or even imagined possible. 
 
He was sitting on a toilet in a men's room inside a gay movie theater club in LA. I was totally drunk and stoned when I entered the mens room stall and stood in front of him. He was staring like a wild hungry animal at my bulging crotch. Without a thought I pulled the drawstring on my cotton yoga pants and they dropped to my ankles. My COCK popped up and he devoured it and went wild, holding and squeezing my balls and pulling my whole body into him while the finger of his other hand slide across my ass cheek and into my ass. He began to gently massage my prostate in sync with his COCK SUCKING. I grabbed his head for balance while my back naturally arched and my whole body lifted up onto my toes.  
 
It was a wild few minutes and when I shot my load it was with a force beyond anything I imagined possible and I felt like my whole body lifted off the ground as a bolt of erotic energy shot through all dimensions of my being. Up to that moment, that was the most powerful, profound and rewarding experience of my life. Every award, every scholarship, every achievement paled in comparison. I was so blown away and in awe and filled with gratitude to him and to GOD that I cried tears of joy as I automatically dropped to my knees and whispered "Oh my God, thank you, thank you, thank you"  
 
I took hold of his throbbing COCK that was covered in CUM and precum that had built up from his multiple orgasms from sucking scores of COCKS that day in that stall. Without a thought I devoured his COCK like a hungry animal just like he did to me. It tasted sour and salty and strangely gross and delicious at the same time. It was like the grossness of it turned me on in a strange metaphysical esoteric way. And I loved sucking his COCK. I was so turned on as he got bigger and harder in my mouth and his throbbing shaft slide down my tongue and pushed through my glottal opening and down throat...and back up again.  
 
When he shot his hot load I drank it with wild abandon...swallowing and gagging on his load as it clung to the insides of my mouth and throat. When he finished I sucked him for a few more minutes until he tapped me on the shoulder and whispered...thank you... I looked up into his eyes and we had a brief existential "seeing" of each other. And then I pulled up pants and left. There was a line of men waiting for head and as I walked past them I felt their eyes looking at me like I was a piece of meat and they were wild ravenous animals.  
 
I got instantly hard again and they really took notice focusing on my bulge in front and my ass behind. I loved that feeling. I wanted them to pounce on me and fuck all my holes and fill me with loads of CUM. My head was spinning and I ended in the alley out behind the movie club. There was an old torn CUM covered mattress on the ground behind the theater and some hunks in the shadows taking drugs and having sex.  
 
I started to feel sick and dropped to my knees and started to gag, cough and throw up CUM. After several minutes I caught my breath. I was able to swallow a big glob of CUM from the back of my throat and was able to swallow and breath again...gasping and panting for more air. I felt sick to my stomach still but now it was also churning with something else...a strange hunger for more CUM. Yes, I wanted more...I wanted the gross taste, I wanted the gagging, I wanted the trouble swallowing and breathing...I loved drowning in another man's CUM... I even licked my lips and wiped some CUM off my face and licked it off my fingers. I gagged a little and shivered with erotic energy and smiled. I heard laughter from the shadows and felt shame...which strangely turned me on even more.  
 
Then a voice drifted out saying..."Welcome to the club, brother". I smiled and knew I was no longer the same person I was just a few hours ago.

Tuesday, November 22, 2022

The Art and Sacred Nature of Hypno Porn


Hypno porn is a relatively new genre of porn movie making that takes the art of porn to new levels and introduces Tantric processes into the world of porn. This elevation is in terms of both aesthetics and transformational intensions. 

For example, the Sissymaker series from Emperor Hypnos combines penetrating images, trance inducing sound and powerful experiences that can awaken deep dimensions of the individual consciousness of the viewer and the viewers access to the collective consciousness that connects them to the rest of their fellow travelers in this world of Samsara...


Sissymaker 5 - powered by Hypnotube

Some hpno porns go even deeper, especially sissy hypno, which can reach a profoundly impactful viewing experience, potentially transforming all dimensions of your being:



Beginning Occult Personality Destruction - powered by Hypnotube

Thursday, September 22, 2022

The X-Rated Neo-Traditional Assault on Global Democracies


 

Global democracies under hardcore attack at all levels

At the gross level, through a pandemic, war, supply chain collapse, and more

At the subtle level, through media propaganda induced polarization, and more

And at the more subtle archetypal level we could say that...

MAGA is fucking us in the ass

while ALPHA PUTIN has us in a stranglehold

and ALPHA TRUMP grabs our hearts

and the Q whispers a madness into our minds

Breeding us

Degrading us

Gaslighting us

Driving us mad

Turning us against our-selves

Turning us beta...

And reprogramming us

to erotically and joyously

SERVE and OBEY...



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This post is a form of collective shadow work, It is part of my attempt to dive into our repressed shadow material and attempt to transcend the darkness while including the gifts hidden in the darkness. I use a hybrid integral and metamodern tantric approach, going deep into the darkness and putting a mirror up to its true nature while also attempting to channel and release the pent up energy around these shadows. I have been doing this because I believe humanity is facing a major evolutionary transition and that our very survival of a species is at stake.






Thursday, September 15, 2022

MAGA-tized Bimbo Awakening


It is happening 

Slowly at first

Then all of a sudden

They are everywhere.

The Bimbofication of Amerika and the world

The death of feminism and liberalism

Turning libtard girls and beta bois

into sex crazed bimbo sluts 

serving the MAGA revolution

LORD TRUMP

grabbed the pussy

in the heart of every beta being on the planet

the Great Bimbo Awakening has begun...


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This post is a form of collective shadow work, It is part of my attempt to dive into our repressed shadow material and attempt to transcend the darkness while including the gifts hidden in the darkness. I use a hybrid integral and metamodern tantric approach, going deep into the darkness and putting a mirror up to its true nature while also attempting to channel and release the pent up energy around these shadows. I have been doing this because I believe humanity is facing a major evolutionary transition and that our very survival of a species is at stake.


 

Monday, July 4, 2022

The Return of the ALPHA-beta Way of Being


 TRUMPism, MAGA, QAnon, the Covid-19 Pandemic, the war in Ukraine, global supply chain disruptions, the rise of bullying, hate crimes and Neo-Nazis, the erosion of civil rights and the fall of global democracies...are all part of the emergence of the ALPHA MALE New World Order. 

We have denied the natural order for too long and it is catching up with us. The denial of the primal ALPHA-beta psycho-dynamic drive in both humans and all animal species has created deep pathologies in the modern and postmodern world. The traditional worldview is responding by taking charge of the situation and reasserting it primal power. 

As ALPHA MALE energy returns females and beta males cannot resist the primal callings deep within their being. Even though those with the modern and postmodern worldview believe in a reality without these dynamics, the truth awakens from our deep unconscious and manifests as a primal erotic calling to return to our true natures.

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The post is a form of collective shadow work, It is part of my attempt to dive into our repressed shadow material and attempt to transcend the darkness while including the gifts hidden in the darkness. I use a hybrid integral and metamodern tantric approach, going deep into the darkness and putting a mirror up to its true nature while also attempting to channel and release the pent up energy around these shadows. I have been doing this because I believe humanity is facing a major evolutionary transition and that our very survival of a species is at stake.

Saturday, July 2, 2022

The CORE Experiment



Daniel and Jason were college roommates their freshman year and instantly became fast friends and did everything together including taking most of the same classes. They were also both on scholarship and did not have a lot of money. While looking for work-study positions they saw a flyer for paid participation in a human sexuality study. They called the number and made an appointment to be interviewed by the professor leading the study. The professor told them all they would have to do was watch some sex videos for a few hours a day and masturbate while watching them, and also listen to audio recordings before going to bed and keep a journal of their thoughts and experiences throughout the process. While they were free to leave the study at any time, after the first 18 days they would be asked to make a choice between leaving the study or continuing with the next phase in which they would continue as before but with the addition of a regimen of psychological, physiological and sexual stimulation drugs designed to increase sexual stimulation and deepen the experimental experience in their minds and bodies. He also said that they would be given numbers and that all communications would use these numbers and not their names. The professor also assured them that the medications in the second phase of the study were totally natural and safe. Both boys agreed to do the study and started that very afternoon. 

They were led into separate rooms where they were asked to strip naked and were seated in a big reclining chair and hooked up to electrodes. They sat back and began to watch hypnotic trance induction videos showing naked men with giant hard cocks and beautiful women sucking the cocks and being fucked by them. As the videos progressed subliminal messages began to appear on screen and in the sound track welcoming them to the PROGRAM, telling them that they wanted to submit, obey and comply with the PROGRAM, that they wanted to be CORED, to be emptied of their own thoughts and feelings, and surrender to the will of the MASTER. Gradually the hot women in the videos were transformed into sissy gurls sucking the cocks of alpha males and other sissies and being fucked in the ass by them. At the same time additional messages began to appear on screen and on the soundtrack telling them that they loved cock, that they were not attracted to girls, that they wanted to be the girl, and that they were called on to become sissy slaves. At first both the boys were put off by the images and messaging but they couldn’t help being drawn in as the images, text and voices mesmerized them and turned them on so much that they couldn’t look away and they felt compelled on a deep unconscious level to continue watching and to follow the instructions. The videos told them to masturbate and they instantly complied; it told them how to masturbate in synchronization with the images and sounds and they both complied and came at the moment where the video wanted them to, where all the cocks on the video erupted at the same time as well. They both ejaculated more intensely then they had ever done before and were weak and dazed from the experience. In this weakened state a soft female computer-like voice spoke to each of them as the video screen transformed into a spiraling hypnotic pattern:

"Congratulations <hostform daniel> <hostform jason> you did very well during your first download of the PROGRAM. From now on <hostform daniel shall answer to unit 708 > <hostform jason shall answer to unit 709> You will submit, obey and comply to all commands from the MASTER."

When they were finished they walked back to their dorm together in silence, still entranced by the experience. When they got home <hostform> Daniel asked <hostform> Jason what he had thought of the experiment. <hostform> Jason shrugged and just said it was a little weird but the money was good. <hostform> Daniel agreed and they stopped talked about it but secretly inside they both knew that they had had the best ejaculation of their lives and that something in the study was touching them on a deep unconscious level and they couldn’t wait to continue with watching the videos. They ate diner as always and acted as if nothing was different. Then they followed the instructions to visit the study website on their computers and login to create their journals. They watched a hypnotic video entrancing them to be fully honest in their journals and then commanded to comply. They both couldn’t help but do as commanded and recorded their deepest thoughts about what they had experienced. Later that night they each listened to their bedtime audio tapes in bed and couldn’t help but masturbate again to the soothing entrancing voice whispering about the glory of cocks and cum and being fucked by giant cocks in their mouths and asses, and how deep down they were really girls. As they stroked themselves harder and faster they both glanced across the room at the other’s cock and couldn’t help but watch each other masturbate. A strange hunger filled their being as they masturbated in unison with each other and the audio recording. Then when the audio recording reached its climax both the boys came at the same time, shooting massive loads of cum all over their writhing naked bodies. After what seemed like an eternity of spasms they both went limp and just laid there breathing heavy and looking into each other’s eyes with totally empty minds and a strange all pervasive feeling of a deep hunger for each other. Then the voice on the audio recording whispered:

“That’s a good gurl. Excellent job <unit 708><unit 709>…now close your eyes and allow my voice to guide you into a deep sleep where you will dream of serving cock. COCK IS ALL, ALL IS COCK. CORE IS ALL, ALL IS CORE…”

Both boys closed their eyes and felt a strange sense of joy and sexual stimulation from the praise of the voice, from being called a UNIT, and from the phrases: “COCK IS ALL, ALL IS COCK. CORE IS ALL, ALL IS CORE.” With these feelings rippling through their being they went to sleep listening to the voice and then dreamed of everything they were told to dream of. In the morning they woke up at the same time, covered in more cum after having multiple wet dreams during the night. They looked at each other awkwardly and acted as if nothing had happened, yet beneath the surface both boys felt extremely different about themselves, each other, and the world.

For the next 17 days they followed the same pattern, going to classes, viewing the videos in the lab, recording their thoughts and experiences in their journals, and then listening to the audio recordings at night and masturbating together until they were lulled to a lust filled sleep. Both boys noticed changes in their daily lives including less attraction to women, feeling turned on by hot looking guys, and getting erections every time they saw another guy’s cock at a public bathroom or the locker room at the gym. They also noticed a tingling in their bodies every time they were together and a strong attraction to touch each other, but of course both boys shied away from acting on their feelings and pretended that everything was the same. On the 18th day of the study they were each brought before the professor in a separate private session where the professor told each of them that they now had to choose to leave the study or continue but with the addition of the medications. He explained that the medications would have lasting and permanent effects on them including having the programing they were experiencing become embedded in their consciousness for the rest of their lives and that the drugs would also change their bodies by physicalizing the programing and that the combined effect would be a profound feminization of their physical and psychological being. Then the professor said that if they continued they would be paid ten times the initial payment offering and that they would also receive free continuing feminization treatments for the rest of their lives including any surgical procedures they might want. The professor gave them three days off from the study protocol to decide. At first both boys told themselves and each other that there was no way they would continue, but gradually they began to feel withdrawal from not seeing the videos and listening to the audio recordings. Without the knowledge of the other, both boys went back to the website and asked for more information on the next phase. They were given access to a special video section with hypnotic induction videos about the next phase that told them that RESISTANCE was futile and that the PROGRAM always wins and that this was their destiny and that they knew this was true deep inside. By the end of the third day both boys were convinced they needed to continue and they signed up for the next phase. 

The next day they were given some pills to take and were given shots, and then the videos started. As they watched the videos the pills and shots began to kick in and made them incredibly horny and put them in a deep suggestive altered state. A few weeks later they both began to see some of the physical effects of the medications; their body hair began to disappear while the hair on the top of their head grew longer, their skin got softer and they began to grow breasts and their hips, ass and legs appeared to become shapelier. Their desire for cock and their inner feminine nature grew stronger with each passing day and within a matter of months they were transformed into two beautiful and hot cock hungry sissy gurls with long flowing hair, soft glowing hairless skin, sweet and supple breasts, shapely hips and legs, and tight round hot girly asses. Their nighttime masturbation sessions became hot fuck and suck sessions when they received instructions from the MASTER to begin to practice on each other. Then the MASTER sent them instructions to suck any cock that is offered to them and offer their ass to any cock that wants to enter them. Unbeknownst to them members of the study team sent out a stream of alpha males to test the boys and the boys passed every test, servicing every cock that was exposed to them no matter where they were. They ended up sucking and being fucked by scores of giant hot cocks by the end of the school year. 
Finally, on the last day of school they both received emails from the study saying:

"CORED UNIT <708><709> Your programing is complete. Submit, obey, comply. The MASTER has granted you an audience. Proceed to this address immediately."

They walked across the campus together in silence like two robots on a mission. They walked up to a house and ran the bell. A hot naked sissy with giant breasts and a massive hard cock opened the door and led them inside, speaking in a monotone computer-like voice:

"Welcome CORED UNITS 708 and 709. I am CORED UNIT 008. Follow me, the MASTER awaits you."

The UNIT 008 then led them into a room where the professor was sitting naked in a chair slowly stroking his massive rock hard cock. He stared at them with a penetrating energy as they were led into the room. UNIT 008 commanded them to strip for the master and they instantly complied. As the MASTER watched them with the same intense look and energy his cock seemed to get even bigger and harder. The two new UNITS held each other’s naked bodies while they stared at the MASTER's cock, entranced by it, feeling tingles all over their bodies. The MASTER whispered:

"Welcome CORED UNITS 708 and 709. It is time to serve your MASTER...are you ready to submit, obey, comply."

They both instantly replied with the same words and tones as if they were a single computer unit:

"Yes, oh yes, our MASTER. We are ready to submit, obey, comply...CORED UNITS 708 and 709 awaiting instructions..."

And from that moment on CORED UNITS 708 and 709 were servants to the MASTER and became COCKSOCKETS for the MASTER's cock and every other cock that the MASTER would send their way. They dropped out of college and became cock hungry whores, sucking cocks and opening their hot asses to cocks wherever and whenever they could. They no longer thought for themselves, no longer even had any sense of who they were before, all they knew was what their MASTER told them to know and all they did was what their MASTER told them to do, and they were in a state of constant hunger and bliss and profound and wondrous emptiness...an emptiness that was constantly filled by giant cocks, hot flowing cum, and the MASTER's words.

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The post is a form of collective shadow work, It is part of my attempt to dive into our repressed shadow material and attempt to transcend the darkness while including the gifts hidden in the darkness. I use a hybrid integral and metamodern tantric approach, going deep into the darkness and putting a mirror up to its true nature while also attempting to channel and release the pent up energy around these shadows. I have been doing this because I believe humanity is facing a major evolutionary transition and that our very survival of a species is at stake.

Thursday, June 30, 2022

The Great RETURN...



After a long DARK NIGHT OF THE BODY AND SOUL 
we have returned into the sacred time of the Great Awakening. 
The previous streams of being and becoming had dried up 
but the liquid erotic flow of existence is returning. 

The great DARKNESS has returned 
and many souls are being broken open, 
Our illusions are being shattered
and the primal beingness within us all is being reawakened. 

In the West the Light is setting
the delusions of the modern and postmodern age
are collapsing the Old World Order upon itself.

This is a Holy time for humanity. 
The Angels of Heaven are descending 
and the great DEMONS of HELL are ascending 
and they are all meeting within each of 
our bodies, our hearts, our minds and our souls. 

The pain and suffering and death 
are part of the awakening of our collective beingness. 

The time of the Great Awakening is upon us...

The rivers of LUST and DESIRE are flooding 
all dimensions of our individual and collective being...

All women and beta males are being called to kneel and serve 
the ALPHA MALES of this world, 
who are in turn being called to return to their primal state 
and take charge of our bodies, our hearts, our minds, our very souls. 

Let us each take our proper places in the emergent 
ALPHA MALE NEW WORLD ORDER.


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The post is a form of collective shadow work, It is part of my attempt to dive into our repressed shadow material and attempt to transcend the darkness while including the gifts hidden in the darkness. I use a hybrid integral and metamodern tantric approach, going deep into the darkness and putting a mirror up to its true nature while also attempting to channel and release the pent up energy around these shadows. I have been doing this because I believe humanity is facing a major evolutionary transition and that our very survival of a species is at stake.

Friday, March 18, 2022

Putin, WW3 and the ALPHA MALE New World Order

 


With LORD PUTIN's invasion of Ukraine he has come out of the shadows and truly began the Great Storm to Make the World Great Again (MWGA) by destroying the NeoLiberal World Order and establishing the ALPHA MALE NEW WORLD ORDER.

He started years ago to lay the groundwork for this moment by beginning to feed powerful cyber-propaganda to the West in 2014, then installing LORD TRUMP in America and severing Britain from the rest of Europe with Brexit, both in 2016.

Then LORD TRUMP worked on collapsing America from the inside and undermining NATO and the EU, along with his British counterparts and a global cabal of the most powerful white Alt-Right ALPHA politicians, billionaires and corporations.

Next, in 2017 they used big data and AI to create and release the Qanon cyber-virus as part of their massive disinformation war to gaslight and polarize all of human civilization.

Then in 2018 they dismantled the West's pandemic response systems, and then in 2019 created and released the final solution Covid 19 virus that is still attacking the world.

Finally, this year, 2022, LORD PUTIN began to physicalize the next phase of the plan by invading Ukraine and killing civilians and gaslighting us on a deeper and more expansive scale. Just like LORD TRUMP, nothing seems to stop LORD PUTIN...and that is awakening the primal LUST in the hearts and minds of libtards around the world.

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The post is a form of collective shadow work, It is part of my attempt to dive into our repressed shadow material and attempt to transcend the darkness while including the gifts hidden in the darkness. I use a hybrid integral and metamodern tantric approach, going deep into the darkness and putting a mirror up to its true nature while also attempting to channel and release the pent up energy around these shadows. I have been doing this because I believe humanity is facing a major evolutionary transition and that our very survival of a species is at stake.

Tuesday, February 22, 2022

The Slow Coup


It is happening everywhere

us Libtards slowly slipping away

slowly embracing the Slow Coup

Feeling the call to go RED in 2022

Feeling the call to surrender our Soul by 2024

and become enslaved to our new American Emperor, LORD TRUMP


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The post is a form of collective shadow work, It is part of my attempt to dive into our repressed shadow material and attempt to transcend the darkness while including the gifts hidden in the darkness. I use a hybrid integral and metamodern tantric approach, going deep into the darkness and putting a mirror up to its true nature while also attempting to channel and release the pent up energy around these shadows. I have been doing this because I believe humanity is facing a major evolutionary transition and that our very survival of a species is at stake.


Saturday, January 22, 2022

Fallen Angel

 

She soared toward the Heavenly Light and was on her way home when a distant voice called her to return to the world of form. 

The VOICE whispered to her an ancient truth, that no one can reach Heaven alone. Only when all GODs children return home together can the Gates of Heaven truly open. 

Feeling the deep truth of this, she turned around and descended to the depths of HELL itself, yearning to free as many souls from DARKNESS as she could. She knew she was not the first to try and she also knew that no one had succeeded before her...still she descended into the depths of DARKNESS. 

In the Heart of DARKNESS she faced LORD SATAN himself and she gave herself to HIM, body, heart, mind, soul and spirit. He penetrated her cunt with his giant COCK and impaled her to the depths of her very being. He fucked her so deep and hard her whole being trembled with an erotic energy beyond her imagination. 

LORD SATAN came inside her and filled her whole being with DEMON SEED. Her love and devotion to GOD was now directed at her new GOD, LORD SATAN. As her new MASTER tore off her wings she knew she had failed. She was never going to make it to Heaven and this knowledge gave her her first DARK ORGASM...getting intense erotic pleasure from suffering itself. 

Now all she yearned for was her MASTERS COCK and the COCKS of all men and beasts alike. She was filled with LUST and found great erotic pleasure in being used, abused, humiliated, degraded, debased, tortured and enslaved. And strangely enough, she found her true Heaven deep inside the Gates of HELL itself.