Remembering my First COCK Crush

I remember my very first COCK crush. It happened when I was in junior high and my bully pulled out his giant COCK in class when the teacher was out of the room. He jerked off at the teachers desk and acted like he was gonna shoot his CUM all over it but then we heard the teacher approach so he pulled it back into his pants and sat down. But it was too late for me. 

The sight of his hard throbbing giant COCK penetrated my entire being and I became obsessed with it. I dreamed about it and jerked off to the image of it that was burned into my mind. Before this I would always try to avoid running into him because I knew he would abuse me. After this experience I went out of my way to be near him. Now every mean word, every punch to my stomach, turned me on. 

I started to follow him into the boys room and he caught me staring at his COCK while he pissed. He called me a sissy faggot and beat me up pretty good. While he beat me his COCK was still hanging out of his fly and with every punch it grew bigger and harder. Finally he stopped hitting me and stood there, above me as I knelt on the sticky floor before him, panting and staring at me. Before I knew it he was violently face fucking me, slamming that giant COCK of his down my gagging throat. After several wild minutes he held the back of my head and slammed his COCK deep all the way down my throat and shot a giant hot load of CUM straight down my gasping gagging gullet. The load was so huge I struggled to swallow it all while his giant COCK was still deeply embedded in me. For a moment I couldn't breath and then he pulled out and I gasped for air and swallowed down as much as I could. He laughed and said he owned me know and that I was now his sissy faggot CUM dumpster slave. I smiled and said...yes MASTER. 

From that day forth I was indeed his CUM dumpster, taking several loads of his every day down my throat and up my ass, all through junior high and high school.

 

The Age of Transformation and the Re-Awakening of the Primal Self

In this age of transformation the line between binary and polar opposite patterns is being blurred. The line between male and female, between right and wrong, between democracy and authoritarianism, between love and hate, between truth and fiction, between shadow and light, between our highest ideas and our lowest impulses, between real reality and virtual reality and more. Pansexuallity, pornsexuality, trans-sexuality are cumming into their own as we discover more dimensions of our selves and explore more ways to connect on deeper and more primal levels. 

We are also waking up to our social programming and our false enculturated self, and at the same time, the new emerging art form of hypno-porn is waking us up to our primal erotic selves. The illusions of the neoliberal order are becoming clear to many of us, recognizing our liberalized denial of the natural order and our own primal nature. 

With all this we are witnessing the re-emergence of the ALPHA-beta dynamic in all dimensions of our reality and the birth of the ALPHA MALE New World Order. More and more women and beta males are waking up to our true place and purpose in the world, as beta beings in joyous servitude to any and all ALPHA BEINGS. As part of this awakening, we are re-awakening to our primal love and LUST for our one true GOD...COCK. 

As the old neoliberal reality crumbles around us, the new, truer world is arising in our hearts and minds, in our bodies and souls, and in all dimensions of our being and becoming individually and collectively. 

Let us rejoice in this awakening and embrace our true selves and take our true place and follow our true purpose...and CUM into a true primal relationship with ourselves, with each other, and with our true GOD...and let us kneel before the Great ALPHA COCK GOD and take Holy Communion of the SEED OF CREATION and find our true joy.

 

Liberal TRUMP Abuse Withdrawal Syndrome

 

After four years of mass psychological abuse and gaslighting by TRUMP and the MAGA movement, many liberals are now suffering from abuse withdrawal. This withdrawal is natural for those who have experienced long term psychological abuse. This is being amplified by the media's suppression of all MAGA content online. This suppression leads to psychological repression of the effects of the abuse and produces extreme yearning for a return to the abusive state. This is why so many more liberals are secretly masturbating to MAGA porn and why so many of them are graduating to WHITE Supremacy porn. 

This is all a very natural process and will grow and grow until the MAGA and WHITE Supremacy movement will take over the collective consciousness of America. We will most likely see a return of LORD TRUMP to power, as well as more and more hard core ALPHA WHITE MALES taking back the reigns of power around the world. 

We liberals are caught in a deep psychologically pathological self-destruction spiral and gradually we will evolve into a slave class for the ALPHA MALE New World Order as our Neo-Liberal World Order succumbs to our pathologies and the primal natural order of humanity returns to take control of our bodies, hearts, souls, spirits and all of human civilization.

Holy Communion with the Great COCK GOD

Take Holy Communion of the the Great COCK GOD

Worship the Great COCK GODHEAD with thy lips and tongue

Drink of the SEED OF CREATION and let it impregnate thy soul with LUST and desire for thy LORD so that you may worship your GOD all the days of your life and for all eternity...

AH-MEN...

A Covid Sissy Conversion Story

I was backpacking through Europe when Covid hit and I met this wonderful German couple who took me in. He said he was a doctor and he gave me all sorts of free medicine, pills and shots to keep me strong and healthy through the pandemic. She was a hypnotherapist and she gave me free stress reduction hypnotherapy every day as well, saying that it was important to manage stress during these challenging times. By the time I realized they were giving me feminization drugs and hypnotizing me to be their sissy slave whore it was too late...once I knew what was happening I not only didn't care, but I loved it and wanted more. Now a year later I am their fully feminized sissy slave whore and I am so excited now that the isolation period is much less severe and I get to service all their friends and family as well. I love my new MASTERS and have never been happier or more fulfilled.

 

Jerk Buddy Heaven

My college roommate introduced me to drugs, porn and jerk buddy sex. I was an innocent freshman from the midwest at a liberal California college. My new roommate was a total stoner and would spend all day and night stoned, listening to music and playing video games. Finally I broke down a took a hit off his giant bong and that was it for me. It was amazing. A whole new reality opened up for me. 

After a few hours and many bong hits we started playing porn video games which led to hypno porn videos which were totally trippy when combined with the weed. We both got so hot and he pulled out his giant COCK and started to jerk off. Before long we were bating each other and it was the most erotic experience of my life...or so I thought...each step deeper into jerk buddy sex was more and more erotically wondrous. 

That first feel of my hand on another guys hard throbbing COCK, the first feel of that COCK exploding in my hand, the first time we came at the same time, the first time my COCK touched another COCK, the first time my lips touched another COCK, my first COCK gag as it slide down my throat, the first load of another man's CUM shooting down my throat, and of course the first time a COCK bred my ass pussy...each step of the way was more and more erotically wondrous. And I was hooked forever in an unending pleasure spiral falling down the Rabbit Hole toward Jerk Buddy Heaven...and I would not change a thing...

 

Straight Porn Role Transference

Straight porn role transference is a powerful transformative agent in the awakening of gay and sissy consciousness. Beta males gooning to straight porn will often associate more with the women than the men in the images because the males are often only partially shown, just their COCKS, hands, etc. and the females are the ones that tell us what the emotional story is because the focus is on both their bodies and their faces...the females emotional reactions are primary so we beta males naturally project onto them.

 

The First Taste of COCK is Never the Last

Once I tasted COCK I was hooked for life. There really is nothing like it. I was 13 and forced to suck the COCK of my bully. I gagged and choked on it and threw up afterward but that night I jerked off to the memory all night long. From that moment on all I could think about was COCK. Before this moment I avoided my bully whenever I could, but the next day I went out of my way to find him. As always he shoved my books out of my hands and I got down on my knees instantly to pick them up but this time I stayed down there extra long gazing at his crotch. I looked up into his eyes and he knew I was now his slave. From that day on, every day, I serviced his COCK with my mouth and ass while he physically and verbally abused me...and I loved every second of it.

 

The Transformative Potential of Wearing a COCK Cage

I will never forget the first time I wore a cage. It felt like it shifted my entire field of self awareness. Suddenly my boi pussy became the center of my erotic energy field. My awareness of a feminine part of myself that before this felt like it was buried deep inside me, suddenly shifted so that I "she" was now totally released and filled my whole being with her beingness...I finally felt the "sheness" I had always sensed was who I was. Before that "sheness" was growing nearer and nearer but suddenly now, "she" was fully and completely home...

 

The First Time I Made a COCK CUM in my Mouth

I will never forget the first time I made a COCK CUM in my mouth. It is hard to describe the feelings because there was so many of them all at once....feeling both a sense of power of the COCK and at the same time feeling at its mercy; a deep yearning to receive its SEED and a deep fear that it would change me forever...and a deep excitement that it would change me forever...and so much more...and then that moment when it erupted deep down my gagging gullet was truly transcendent. It felt like the CUM was alive and had a life force. I could feel the tiny little sperm cells trying to attach to my throat and impregnate me. OMG...the most amazing feeling. And at the same time being overwhelmed by their attaching to me as it made it hard to swallow and breath. A living force was inside me now and taking me to the very edge of life and death for a brief wild erotic ecstatic moment. And then as I swallowed more and more of them, feeling them in my belly, I swear like I was truly being impregnated and I could feel their beingness penetrating me to the depths of my very being and transforming me into a woman. After that I became a CUM addict and have been one ever since.